First song off the 'A Life Story' album from Italikz first solo effort.
Credits: NIP Productions
Story behind the song
Its about me
Lyrics
I don't know if you'll be able to read this clearly, but as an artist I don't feel I should edit how I had first written this.
as i sit here thinkin to myself/
starin at the books piled on my shelf/
-i never read them, but i wish i had/
-to many thoughts cross my mind makin to many paths/
i always wanted to be a deep thinker/
-but to many ideas would often linger/
causin me to lose focus on the right lane/
-sittin in my room lookin out the window pane/
-wonderin why, why am i here/
-my life filled with anxiety and to many tears/
-and no one is here, to help with the pain/
-my whole existance summed up in one day of rain/
-lookin for a God, and I try to believe/
-but all of my beliefs turn out to be fallacies/
and then you tell me to be strong at heart/
while i bleed eternally, from every part/
can you help me/
oh whoa oh whoa oh whoa/
can you help me/
somebody please give me the strength/
cuz right now i dont wanna see another day/
now, i never said i was a man of depression/
but can i help if its my favorite expression/
and i dont want it to just go away/
-why would i wanna live happy, give me sadness anyday/
you'll probably think im crazy after hearin that/
and if you care why dont you lend a helpin hand./
but your to busy livin yours forgettin mine/
-and when this song is done you wont remember my time/
-so i just, sit here thinkin to myself/
starin at the books piled on my shelf/
-and if i read them, i doubt it'd be any different/
-i'd still be sitting here, a failed skitosfrenic/
dont get me wrong, sometimes you'll see me smile/
and every now and then you'll see the laughter pile/
but dont be fooled, i still got the tears/
-all the pain and tragady of livin 19 years/
