often
these memories
flood in
like demons
dynamite my freedom
forever that water
coming
not leavin
but i stay treading
my head above sea scum
while gears grind
underneath me
at the chains wrapped round my feet
I keep steady with eyes up
till blinding
I've had the gaze locked on
the sun so long my mind's gone numb
ears cocked still nothing but silence
I'm floating awestruck
still waiting to get touched
by something heavy either tow me out
or push me under and kill all doubt
I'm ready
either way lord i beg you please
give me relief or sleep
release me and let me drown
I need an answer not soon
but right now
still i know
Keep your nose to grindstone
don't complain
stay on your J-O it'll B okay
one day at a time
don't be so quick to turn the page
learn from this
and just keep the faith
Watch as Tidal waves
wash out bridges
built by terestrial midgets
namely us peons
that spawn
ideas gadgets and widgets
stealing faith away from
higher possibility
we can't see
past the bottom half
of the glass
almost empty simply
love doesn't thrive here
thru the cracks in the cement
nickel bit of light left
sprinkled with tears
music to mine
falling on deaf ears
surrounded by darker
regions
so
I can't see it
the pain
still so recent
feelin like
I'm walking backward
following my shallow shadow
rain clouds gathering
to wet this sorrow's appetite
this monster that lives inside
feeds off misery
how i've
been keeping him at bay for
so long is finally a mystery
time has now allowed me to face
why, as a child i raged so frequently
I'm remembering the voices so clear
pulling at the seams
i would cup my ears
thinking that would shut them out
instead only made
more
loudly
scream
