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Song Info
Genre
Charts
#7,364 in subgenre
Peak #62
Charts
Peak #871
Author
X Konn/Sindustry
Rights
Matthew Scott, 2008
Uploaded
October 25, 2008
Track Files
MP3
MP3 3.1 MB • 128 kbps • 3:25
Lyrics
(Intro)
This is to the world
(Verse)
I’ve had more than I can handle, this ain’t depression//
This isn’t cowardice, or an ill form of aggression//
But I feel I’ve run the road, to its very limits//
Grief stricken that it’s over, before it’s meant to finish//
I’m facing downward struggles, my mates are worried//
That I’m jeopardizing my life, to end it in a hurry//
I prey for an illness to take me peacefully//
So I don’t have to hang, and lose my decency//
But right now, maybe suicide, will end it fast//
Maybe I should be focusing on the life I’ve had//
On the past I had, on the pain that I shared//
On this bullshit I damaged beyond repair//
I don’t care, for this rap anymore//
I don’t apply myself, in this crap anymore//
So you see, you hear a loss of passion in the core//
Like I’m done with this shit, causing shock and awe//
I caused pain and horror, torment and anger//
Depression and frustration, I’m just a wanker//
Who could love me? Accept me for being me//
When I’m a constant worry, he’ll be next to R.I.P//
Since I’m dead on the inside, outside should follow//
Instead you see the figure of a man, walking round hollow//
Blinded by the street lights, focussing on what’s beneath//
Me, under the streets, what awaits when I’m deceased//
Time after time, I promised my demise//
Maybe it’s about time, to follow through on my lies//
Close my eyes, bow out for a final time//
Drop the ink well, write my final line//
Close the curtain, bury me forever//
If I’m honest, I’m always thinking of forever//
Am I damned for eternity, will Hell be yearning me//
Or am I just thinking about the only thing worth of me//
I put my life into this shit, you spat it back out//
I put my heart into this shit, you yanked it out//
And tore it away, watched me die as it beat//
In the palm of your hand, fucking killing me//
Don’t cry for me, filling the tear bucket//
I cry enough to piss tears, but fuck it//
I’ll be joining my loved ones, nobody here cares//
If I slit my wrists or cut off my air//
Let me ask, since when was suicide hereditary//
Like “I gotta do this, to cement my legacy”//
I just wanna do it, because the worlds got fed of me//
I’ma go, so, the globe, can be free of another ho’//
I saw fit to give you nineteen years, and no more//
Leap from a third story window, screaming “fuck you all”//
I always said, I’m tryna find someone to live for//
But I’m still looking, so I’m guessing I won’t find her//
I’m insecure about my living, happy I get to die//
Before I close my eye, and fucking go blind//
I’m crying these crimson tears, can’t you see//
That being alive, is basically killing me?//
I held on to long, time to let go//
Time to show the world, not afraid of what’s below//
Hear the screams, then the sirens, a funeral of silence//
Playing my favourite song, with minor key violins//
“Calling All Angles” because it reminds me of her//
And the feelings that I could only portray in words//
So now I’m broken, staring at my ceiling//
Clinging onto life, but don’t know what I’m feeling//
Or what I’m supposed to feel, just drift off//
My life was a gain, now it’s another loss//
Who say’s I died to soon, I’ll watch from above//
At least I said goodbye to those who I love//
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