[Verse 1 – Kaotic]
There’s so many things I wish I coulda said
But they were kept sheltered inside my head/
It’s a lot safer than actually trying
I would much rather just kill myself in silence
(Rather than take the chance of letting me go I hide it)
For the rest of my life to avoid hurt and pain
It’s a lot to endure / it turned me insane
I matured to this day, but I yearn to complain/
I can’t even mention all the tension
From the acceptance of the dreaded rejection/
It completely shattered, all my confidence
It’s frequently battered but you demolished it/
Left me with nothing but pain and misery
And all the suffering I explain so vividly/
It’s hard to face but I embrace it blissfully
And use the pain to create this symphony/
[Verse 2 – Kaotic]
Another rejection would kill my pride
So I conceal and hide, my feelings inside/
History repeats - if that sayin is true
I’d probly still get the same answer from you/
So here’s a gift of my scattered thoughts
See I’d make a list [but I don’t know where to start]
If I had one kiss, I’d pray it never stops
If I had one wish [I’d still be at a loss]
Maybe one day, you’ll finally love me back
Probly not, but the idea’s good in a track/
See, I don’t know if I should smile cuz we’re friends
Or cry cuz that’s all we are in the end/
If I had one song to sum up my love
I’d spend that time saying a song ain’t enough/
I’d still try but there’s a lot to explain
And why even bother when you don’t feel the same/
