i felt many emotions creating this piece and its a bit of a mixture of such an experience in reflections of what i was feeling at the moment
Lyrics
LET IT GO.....
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i go outside to take the time....
to think about letting go....
i kneel to the earth....
and start fighting all i know....
it starts to rain.....
as i ponder letting go...
all i know is pain...
abandoned by the only father ill ever know...
i walk through life holding on...
my heart filled with sadness...
i wonder if he seen me hold my first son...
my adult life is filled with madness....
i made choices that could have killed me...
i took a road that most could never survive..
my life is nothing like it used to be....
i am so shocked that im even alive...
it starts to rain.....
as i ponder letting go...
all i know is pain...
beaten and wounded is all i know...
i spend my time begging for this to all end....
but instead i tell myself to let it go...
my tortured soul is my only friend...
i feel like there is still someone i need to know...
i make a new choice now to leave...
i made this decision to let it go...
i find in myself a new reason to believe...
so i give myself room to grow....
i take another chance on my heart...
again im on my knees to let go....
all to find myself ripped apart...
once again from all i know....
it starts to rain...
as i try to let go...
my life is insanity and pain...
in this place where there is no one i know...
still i wont be cast aside...
so i stand up again and let it all go...
i refuse these old urges to hide...
i met the soul who knows what i dont know...
finally the storm breaks away...
i can finally breathe...
i will let go of what i can everyday...
no longer will i be held underneath....
i see myself in the mirror of you...
you give me strength to let it go...
found in you the ability to pull through...
and embrace this ability to grow...
it starts to rain...
as i try to let go...
my life is insanity and pain...
im not alone now this is what i know...
(no vocals yet)
by:Eva M.Yarnell april 2006