Not The Final Version... jus wanted to see how it sounded, and i didnt no the lyrics that i wrote originally to this beat... so i compromised for now
Listen and reflect.
I basically rap about life.
If u wanna take a step inside to see how crazy it can be, feel free.
Know that it is (typically) non-fiction, or heavily metaphorical.
Lyrics
my understandin of my minutes of my life on this earth
is like a drifter wandrin places, not findin his worth
left in the cold, no actions budged the pace of my stance
past oppurtunities make me ask if i been wastin a chance
facin a trance is wut it seems, i aint followin my mind
had it all planned out until it started to sidewind
god blindsided by more then evryday fears
so i get restless wen i ponder "wen'll heaven get here"
hard wen im 'head of my gear, wit low rounds per minute (RPM's)
my rank is only private wen it needs to be lieutenant
i admit it, i'm not where i had planned to be
but survivin the windy road'll make a man of me
some not even standin me, or on the page that i readin
but im pleadin to drop the knives befo my facial is bleedin
not leavin witout closure wit myself in this stage
id rather get popped filled wit fullfillments than a mind filled wit rage
mental challenges are after me, destined to capture me
tryna change the outcome of my life, and wut it has to be
and if it masters me, i'm a fool to myself
i will be no workin ma, jus a tool on the shelf
so i cry fo help, but im turnin to me
like im stuckin this trap door permanently
deservin to be outcast, a sinner needs a punishment
recollection of the past, and how i aint stopped lovin it
but im livin in the present, abruptly stopped
by satan and temptin demonds who still want wut i've got
so im prayin wut they seek'll be a fatal attraction
i know how to retaliate, but i've stopped reactin
don't get me wrong, i truly love and follow God
buy my location on his mission has me lost in a fog
confused like a dog, who be chasin his tail
im guided the direct route, i jus dont see the trail
this aint a song of my depresion, or current hardships
and it mite take u by surprise like i jus emptied both clips
real as it gets, im not even needin a break
cuz time on my hands is wut can put my life at stake
so i fite that state, i dont need to be there
and i aint opened my mouth cuz no ones seemin to care
ya i been heated, u can see the steam from my ear
satans been watchin, cuz i can see MY dream in HIS stare
reason fo spittin is diffrent from originally written
spirit has split, and really i aint seen a reason fo kiddin
wen i got plenty to speak on that the world has disregarded
cuz we livin in a world that is simply cold hearted
which is causin me to fall back behind my quota
snortin coke, we really think we sniffin lines of soda
cuz we lyin to ourselves so that a cover up will last
but it all would've changed if i was back in the past
