Sometimes it's all too much to handle... and you have to put it out of your misery...
Exploring what it means to be human...
Come explore what it means to be an angel trapped in a cage of flesh...
Story behind the song
This was a song my old band, Malicious Intent used to do, one of our originals... this one was my favorite, and with the lessing of my fellow band mate Matt, I recorded this a few months ago, just as a what if? kind of thing... it turned out really well, I think...
The song itself is about dealing with rage, and the urge to f***ing beat the crap out of anything that gets in one's way...
Lyrics
Insanity is taking over my body and my mind
In silence hatred greets me with shivers
down my spine
I've been so hungered for vengence on those who did me wrong
I can't hold back the fury, it's been
burning far too long
I never turned to violence to try and kill the pain
But the aching in my conscience shows I'll
never be the same
With conflict deep inside to choose my words or use my knife
I'm trying to resist, but death is now my
way of life
But will I be justified, will I understand?
When I wake up tomorrow with bloodstains
on my hands
I've got to try and stand tall, I must not lose control
But my will is burned to ashes from the fire
in my soul
I can't take it, I'm losing all my will
My mind is peaceful, but my heart just wants to kill
Desperation, my body aches for the fight
Mass confussion, is life so wrong that death
is right?
No judgement made in heaven can do what must be done
When the fury of the victim means revenge is
soon to come
As I shout out for answers, do the angels hear my plea?
Where can I find deliverance with this rage misguiding me?
I begin to fear myself more, the madness makes me blind
There's no way I can fight it, it's just my state of mind
The fires of hate are rising, what's gotten into me?
My mind can't fight the malice, I'm a slave to what must be
One step from the edge, hateful thoughts run through my head
A black heart beats within me, but my blood still boils red
At first I could resist, now I can't resist at all
As I take my final step and into evil I will
fall
I can't take it, I've lost all my will
My mind is peaceful, but God my heart just wants to kill
Desperation, my body aches for the fight
Mass confussion, is life so wrong that death
is right?
I'm killing the pain
Again and again
Amen.....
