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Story behind the song
This Is My Background, My Environment,
My Family, My Self... And I
Lyrics
[Fake Smiles]
How cud u xpect a man without a childhood,
to bring u happiness, his past was evrythin but painless,
he might hv smiled plenty more times then u noe,
u noe-he nvr liked to hide his feelins from u-gurl,
u meant the whole world to him but ya nvr stopped playin,
is it just a game to u? or are u insane?
look at his background-full of tears,
parents nvr loved him n they left him here,
there, He was forced to reminisce,
bt the times he spent playin with his 2 sisters,
mann, this is sadness...
not to mention wen he last saw his sisters,
they kissed him on his cheek smillin with innocent eyes...
his eyes went teary n his knees came loose,
the gap in his heart grew bigger n the screws went loose,
this is it- this is the last straw,
he finally admits-he cudnt take it no more-
So he cried that night prayin to god to lighten up his burden,
seein him self jumpin over from the 10th floor... n it's curtains...
so sick n tyrd of hvin to put on these fake smile...
Everyday the same thing... still smilin...
a wounded heart... not a single pleasure in this world can mend it,
everybody thot he was happy,
he's always smilin, singin lyk-no1 there to stop him,
not knowin-he's always sheddin tears at night,
he lost everything without puttin up a good fight,
he lost u-n now life is meaningless,
he wants u-back more than life itself...
he has nothing left but regrets n these nightmares,
raised from an awkward angle, but-did anyone cared?
he felt like-a nuisance-a throwback of a human species,
only frens dat exist around him understood his feelins...,
remember-back in school wen he told u his story,
he brought the 'family' topic up, n burst into tears...
he'll go to any length just to hold your hand again,
so i suggest-u-comfort him n make him smile again...
im gonna end this... no more fake smiles...
there's a sayin...
'A man that cried tears... are stronger than a man without fears'
chea~ dat's wat i been livin up with,
n it's time n i ain lyin, but i ain honest either,
n everybody's here ryt now-includin my sisters...
im watchin my sisters now-tryna stay tough,
cuz they done seen me cry alot-n that-is enuff,
u made me suffer mom, u made me suffer dad,
u made me hold a grudge against u, now im gettin at u back,
both sides are hurtin-i feel my heart gapping,
can't say i love u anymore-im leavin...
for good-n i dn wanna see u anymore,
hope u feel d same way too-let our angers squash to war,
it's a give n take perspective,
but if i had 1 wish, i would wish i would just-vanish,
and that's when she came back,
My angel, My saviour, My Princess, My Lover,
My Heart, My Everything...
and the sky is brighter now-n everyone i loved was there to b found,
n i was so surprised-
I faked smiled cuz i dn wanna show em my emotion,
n just as i approach em... things started to fall in slow motion...
open my eyes- it was all just a dream,
screamin 'subahanallah'... now i noe im not dreamin...
u noe it urself u are my cure, u can save me...
even with this feelin so pure, u still neglect me...
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