Losing focus, im hoping to gain some notice for this
choking on my own provoking words for singing in bliss
reminiscing to the days before I sunk to abyss
Back to the days before this work and worry even exists
Beating around the bush aint got me nowhere in life
Feedin myself aint really easy when the day is the night
It blends togetether, I lose focus, but what has become
When I run but always end up right back where I begun
24 hours, a full day of hell between suns
And by the end of every day I put my head to the gun
I wanna BLAST and end the pain and put an end to this game
Life aint fair that’s what I tell myself at every day
But it is, I know the truth and all it takes is a second
To sit and contemplate the chances that ive had in my blessings
Lessons disguised as hate upon me suddenly get clear
The angst that I was feeling shakes and then disappears
The realization strikes, and lightning hits this mic
All my sins are uncovered, I suddenly feel this light
And then I look up and see the sun, shining into my eyes
And realize, see what I am, and tear apart this disguise
