Lyrics
Nine Lives
My Suicide
Verse one
Run away, from these feelings I’ve tried, I cant my dark shadow wont leave,
My skeletons wont stay in the closet, they’re chasing me, they wont leave me alone
I don’t believe in fate, I believe in torture because I see it. I can feel it it wont go away
Ive tried everything, there is no cure, there is no morphene for my pain. Like a tattoo of a knife screaming life is pain, life is pain
Wait a second, I thought of a cure, its my death, I said my death, you heard me I said my death
Im deciding my fate, what to I do , should I be living or should I be dead
Lust or love doesent matter all the people I hurt all the pain ive caused, what is it worth
Draw a memory of my life its like the painting #1, my decision has become easy, I can no longer hide from my self, I cant live like this this, is my dissolution
Verse two
Its all to overwhelming, its not to make a point, I don’t want sympathy its to make an end
I ve reached my demise. Im possessed like the deamons that ruin me.
Im shattered like the mirror I broke, looking in my own eyes, I couldent take it ive never felt like this, I couldn’t take it
My life is so empty im not even blue. Life or death. I cant choose life, I cant choose life.
No,I cant choose life.
All is lost, all is gone, my sick sick self has got to be gone
Im melting down like Chernobyl, from my disaster I cant recover
The cyanide looks like cold spring water, Its a hundred degrees
Im thirsty, will it quench my thirst
Verse three
My past, my present, my sins, my god, its tearing me apart its burning me inside, its ripping me open, like the acid I drank
I deserve to feel this way
The undertow is too strong, its pulling me under, I cant breathe, I don’t want to be rescued
Its just to late
One step from the edge I can no longer control myself
someone is yelling my name, I don’t look back
Ive fallin like a star, or better yet, the piece of dirt it is
But when I hit the earth will It make an impact, I doubt it
What is pain, I can barely feel, slide my eyes down, zip the bag closed
This is what I wanted, the pain hasn’t stopped, even though im gone the pain still surrounds me
Like the dirt on my corpse
The pain still Surrounds me like the dirt on my corpse
