This is just straight from the heart.. my most honest work yet... RIP Grandma and Grandad
Just some poetry n rhymes over beats
Well there's no band.. just me. My style of rap started with my poetry.. I mean I can't even pretend to be a "gangsta" rapper living in Perth, Australia right?
Just trying to keep it real, I think people can really feel and relate to what I say. That's all I'm trying to do... Honesty is sometimes embarassing for people but if you can't say how you feel in your music then you're saying nothing...
Story behind the song
Just came into my head as I was writing in my diary.. yknow how sometimes it seems like you are actually the most honest in things like diary's and songs whilst your life is an act.. that's what started this....
Lyrics
In forever there's a promise that our yesterday's are gone
And through the darkness there's a light although the tunnel's long
It's my mentality that stirs the beast, creates another man
That scare's me on a daily, but to help me? No one can
I'm writing you this letter to say sorry for the past
I long to rearrange the damage that I know will last
Psychiatrists and doctors dug, searching for some clarity
Tried to redefine my being, sculpting my reality
I took the pills they handed out and prayed that they would ease
But what's the point of praying? For I have no strong beliefs
The pressures I put on myself, but still I carried on
Hoping everyday anew would build me up, be strong
But when the certainty of never flips, becoming never certain
It seemed the end was drawing close, encores and final curtain
I'm writing you this letter to say sorry to my friends
I hope someway my soul lives on without me 'til the end
Dear Diary...
If there's a heaven well I wont get in, but that's all right with me
My poems will remain behind so one day you will see
I wasn't who you thought I was, not even half as nice
A product of a broken man and pain remains my vice
It's strange to wonder if someday someone will sit and think
About the times we used to share, just hanging out to drink
Eternity will never cease, though lives, they always will
The way that we're remembered by the pictures on the sill
And the dust that settles slowly blurs the past held in perfection
Whilst the manicured remembering is cast into deception
A lonely tear speaks volumes of the love you had for me
And I'm writing you this letter so that one day you can see
That all the times not by your side I'll watch from up above
Circling in flocks of pigeons, one lonely white dove
I'm writing you this letter so that maybe you'll forgive
Everything that never can, that was, and always is
Dear Diary...
Think about my grandma though she's long buried and gone
Glimpses left in memories awakened by sad songs
And it's bringing me to tears because I cannot see her face
Nor goodbye, for there wasn't, so I lie and I can taste
The blood that's on my tongue for I'm biting on my lips
Close my eyes against the pain but it is just what it is
Floating softly on my dreams that I know do not exist
For no matter how we dream, the feelings always will persist
And even in our happiness, tears well up in our eyes
Towering grey clouds forever, speckling our skies
Asking why's? Unto the Gods and we're pleading for an answer
I'm dieing in my sleep so soon with devils I will dance
For my sins and I'm sorry to all those that I have hurt
But please just try to understand this life drove me berserk
I'm writing you this letter for I have no other way
To tell you all the things for years I tried so hard to say
Dear Diary...
