Deranged State of Mind Verse One
Just the first verse
(Hell on Earth Instrumental)
Emcee...shyt dats all i gotta say
Divinity
Story behind the song
pissed off when i wrote this
Lyrics
Some days I feel so bad, I want to slit my wrists for the hell-of-it/
Release, rid and free all my everlasting beef and settle it/
Yesterday I cut my wrists because I was feelin so bad/
Today I crushed a light bulb and scared the fuck out of my dad/
Times are of torture, twisting, torment, and shame/
Everyday I refrain to complain of the fame in this game/
But I cant explain how I remain in this rain of vein/
Drain and sap all my pleasure and input all my pain/
The impact that this is having on my life is ill/
That is why I sit still, chill, high off some pills/
I’m going to throw up all these pills then take several showers/
Got hospital bills, suicide watch for the next few hours/
Im the egg shell, someones walkin in a room step on me/
Fragile and broken, set for eternal doom, grudge, and greed/
Finally got a grip but its true I cut myself till the blood drip
I look so blue you would think I’m a some kind of crip/
I think my brain needs to and must be realigned/
Because im insane and in a deranged state of mind/
