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kris Lo
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December 02, 2004
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Lyrics
i stared at the letters
seemingly hieroglyphic
permantly scraped into the
cold glacier like surface of his grave
but my heart did not chill.
for i could not erase the brutality
his hands spilled swiftly upon my body
against its will.
[like tender watefalls that kill even the sweetest of creatures
they tried to change their fate
their will to live lingered off
as the fall hastened their death
and at the very moment the world paused
knowing it would no longer be the same.]
i was. . .
soft against the subtle sepia tone of his skin
i was. . .
full of innocence
whereas he was full of sin.
my body was thin
then
not yet curvy like the many mothers of my kin
yearning for the day i'd change
manage myself into being a woman
able to fit my suit tightly as i'd swim
into an inner baptism in the city of god
but only god knows many of my reasons were wrong.
i couldn't stand this man i wanted him dead!
having to see him again would be a day i'd dread
for years to come
so i'd sing this song as if it could blind me once again
i'd sing it so I could keep my feelings bound to paper and pen.
i wasn't born white not that it matters,
but i always had dreams of barbie and ken
like me and him
but those thoughts shattered...
the mirror went down
pieces of glass on the floor
my beautiful bureau with all the chests ajar
clothes on the floor
with shoes still in the closet
i couldn't be the same and stay
plain like my mom did
so i grabbed the first piece
jammed it and rammed it
the pleasure reigned high as if
i had planned this
that which was happening at that moment in time
where my thoughts corresponding to those written
in my rhymes
i got off acquitted innocent by the judge
to this day i'm guilty but hold no grudge
copyright 2004 kristina lopez
