How did I get to where I am now? I don't know I can't figure out what reality is right now. Sometimes I don't know why I was put here in the first place! But as soon as I was, melodies sounded too good to my ears. Once I entered the world I began making my own, I was just an infant when I began humming my own melodies and it eventually became one of my biggest passions to learn how to make professional hip hop beats that contained more production than what is normal for a beat to, whether for lyrics or beats for listening. It was my escape from this ongoing lifetime reality I was forced to endure. So I produced hundreds of professional beats over the past decade but they almost all had to be deleted. Things got even more out of control for me in life as expected and I had to stop producing. These are some easy ones that I decided to make right quickly recently. They aren't like my older ones, I made them just messing around to relieve stress. But check out Diary Of A Time, my newest one! I still got it in me after being away from producing for over a year. All my beats are original and made from scratch. All my own melodies and no loops or samples. I also wrote professional poetry, song lyrics and many choruses for great song ideas. I spent this life of horrors which had to begin for me at the age of 13 in a state of isolation keeping to myself trying to escape the reality of whatever is happening to me by keeping my headphones on most of the time, sometimes all, everyday, just studying music and ended up making the music I always aimed to make. Though, what would have been hits, all the music got deleted before they got heard and the big song ideas never got recorded because I didn't have the strength to write. This is what life was apparently though for me but I do hear life in my music or music with similar melodies as some of these. Dreamy... I also had a bad addiction problem, I ended up overcoming all of these addictions eventually a year and a half ago finally but then got trapped back in a nicotine one again because I felt trapped just by trying to break free from these addiction. I'm still looking for a way out of this somehow. But at least I'm myself again. I think. I don't know. Recovering in certain ways I'd say. Though music was probably my biggest addiction... Going to miss it.