Song about trying to make it though hard times and recognizing that I'm not the person I thought I was, but I can be who I want to be.
Acoustic Rock to Hard Rock and plenty in between.
Five Years Solitary is a one man project for now. Its something that I do to stay sharp in between the Army and family. I have hopes of putting a band together so I am always writing and recording songs.
Story behind the song
Written in the aftermath of a dark time in my life and marriage, this song is directly about me coming to terms with who I really am, dismissing the image of who I thought I was and how it affected the people I love, and who I can be going forward.
Lyrics
Darkness fell and I'm still falling
Stepping back I hear you calling
Coming closer everyday
Homeward bound, I know the way
Still I'm praying for the light
Broken hindsight, wronging rights
In my heart I know it's true
There is no home without, no love without you
[Chorus 1]
There's no way back to what I thought that I should be
There's no way back, it's all right here in front of me
There's now way back, I'm standing here right next to you
There's no way back, forward is the only way through
We're gonna make it though!
Fear is only what I make it
In my mind but I can't shake it
Bear my soul, I stand here naked
Nothing's wrong until I break it
[Chorus 2]
There's no way back to what I thought that I should be
There's no way back, it's all right here in front of me
There's no way back, I'm standing here right next to you
There's no way back, forward is the only way
I can't take another day living without you
This war inside
There's nowhere left for me to hide
This war I fight
There's no one left to hate me on the other side
Focus fire on the one's in front of me
There's no one left
Send the pain right back to me
I'm lashing out as though I had a right to choose
I'm all alone, there's nothing left for me to lose
Destroy it all
Lost myself along the way
Lashing out
Screaming at the light of day
Burn it down
No way I could ask for more
Crying out
Innocence can take no more
After all is all that I've got left
[Chorus 3]
There's no way back to what I thought that I should be
There's no way back, it's all right here in front of me
There's no way back, I'm standing here right next to you
There's no way back, forward is the only way
I know that we can make it through
