Collecting these thoughts
The same that once tore me apart
Always trying to connect the dots
Finding meaning in an abstract art
Each passing day, as it may
Wondering had I let you slip away
Loosening my grip in a bold way
Feeling a deep cold day void of the suns ray
So scared of reaching out
Thoughts that you won’t reciprocate
I had confidence, I did not doubt
Not wanting to hear my receipt of fate
You were a difficult one to read
What have I done causing this deed?
It just doesn’t feel right, hearts racing speed
Every detail, I had to take heed
Saying this, I do miss you
I enjoyed the likeness of you company
How will I deal with this unanswered issue?
Which personality is true of your many?
The hardest part is not seeing you again
Investing time in a battle I can’t win
Feeling like I’m in a plane caught in a tailspin
Emotional anxieties that deepen
The comfort I found in your eyes
You were laying there right next to me
Staying there until we said our goodbyes
You and I was right where I wanted to be
I can only assume you are not coming back
Thinking of what it was that I lack
Could’ve made changes and tightening the slack
Pulling me like I’m strung on a rack
I often wonder how you’ve been
I wish I could call you like times of old
Feeling a need to mend what’s broken
A closure that may or may not ever unfold
Copyright 2023 Sean Ferree
