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Music: it's not just a part of me... Though I am many things, music plays in my mind always.
Story behind the song
In early May 2021 I lost my Kirin, a very special dog that was my "rock", suddenly to heart failure. Unable to cope well with that, only two months later I lost my Yogi, another special dog that had been with me twice as long, to lung cancer found while he was about to be emergency treated for bloat. During all that time and right after it, even more bad things were happening, and still are...but none of them tops those two events, though some approach the stress from them.
Lyrics
I wanna take a shower from the inside out
All I can feel is like I've lived without
Feeling a thing that was right or true
Living my hollow life now without any of you.....
im already dead with my heart still beating
lost at the corner of no and where
there's no more pointless painful gasping
for a worthless wasted lungful of air....
tell me the truth, tell me one true thing
Tell me why it's like this why it has to be
The days and the nights echo with a silence
Since that moment passed and so... did... you.
I cry out but I can't hear a thing
reflected back from the black out there
Nothing from no one calling out
everything gone it's all fallen out
ground to dust
rained to mud
flowing down
washed away
all that's left
gravestone grey
upturned dirt
drying tears
