Growin’ up in this world I was so oblivious...
Focus wasn’t enough...I was prone to kiddy sh** ...
As I look back...Seein' how I took bats...
...To car window's as a young kid... sh** made me book facts
Change the way I lived...better myself and face the sh** ...
That I was facin’ in my life......The only way I could describe my dad...
...is wasted b*** , you made me sick...But never mind the fact...
I'm not implyin’ that you were never there...I still wont deny the fact...
...That at times you'd act as if I didn’t mean the time of crap...
...But minus that I'm kinda mad...
...That you dissed mom...I'd sit and scream...cryin’..."Dad"
You'd just push me outta’ the room...the violence adds...
...A little twist on my kid years...sick years; stiff fears...
...Still hung around dad...now...all this sh** 's cleared...
...A place in my head...still it sometimes makes me upset...
...Knowin' I wanted ya'll to brace to the end
But its still mom's side that I'mma take in defense
And you know that I'm right...no reason to fake and pretend
And it wasn’t your friends dad...don’t try to blame it on them
You did that sh** yourself...and now you’re prolly achin’ within
You just thought me as stupid...you were caught n' we knew this
And the one great thing my conscience taught me was music
Some now I'm able to script when you were faulty to prove it
But as I grew older...That’s when I saw you as human
You would offer me trueness...never thought to see YOU this...
Way...just a toss up...or a stalling illusion...
You've been chalkin’ this blueprint...I just couldn’t interpret
What you did when I was young...I was put in a burden...
About how to think about you being good for a person
In the end you were...You'd always love and give us assurance
I'd never hold sh** against you cuz you wouldn’t deserve it
You're still my shoulder to cry on and I would if I'm hurtin’...
