Produced by Merlin Beatz. Rest in Peace Vicente Cinco.
Fresh and New.
Jay-1ne aka Lyrikalz of Prime
Story behind the song
Dealing with my first death of someone so close to me.
Lyrics
I can see it like it was yesterday that day you passed away
It was my first face to face with death, with someone so close to my heart
I lost a huge part - of me it all happened suddenly
My grandfather laying in peace - in front of me
How could this be, even at 98 you looked great
Every battle with death, you fought and escaped
Until a month before your passing, things turned for the worst
But even then I believed you were to come out the other end
Probably why I was out partying to the nights end
Thinking the next day I would see you again
Visit you bedside, you didnt get better I feel like I hurt ya
Worst than the results of the doctor saying its pneumonia
My whole family tried to stand strong
Preaching to you to hold on and soon we'll see the dawn
We all wanted to be selfish and reject this
That you were ready for hospice, you accepted this
Of your time on this Earth coming to a conclusion
So in my denial I turned to boozin'
The night before you passed, I was at the bar drowning
In every shot of every thought of us in the past
Trying to smile again from our memories together
I was like a child believing you would live forever
So I walked by you in the middle of the night to my room
Laid in my bed, looked out the window and saw the moon
Closed my eyes, woke up to October twentyfirst
You passed away in your sleep, atleast it didnt hurt
I can still feel the grip of your lifeless hand
Checking for a pulse as my river of tears began
To drop to the floor with the rest of my life
My regret I wasn't with you bedside on that previous night
I would give my entire world for a second chance
To tell you, I love you and that I will never forget you
You raised me when my parents were out supporting us
You were my best friend, someone I could trust
But now your gone, I just wanted to write you the perfect song
Bring you back to life, so you can live on
