Defendant - Had To Let You Know
This song I poured everything I had into it. I showed so much emotion and true words in this song. I completely put how I feel into words on this song. THIS AINT A SUICIDE NOTE. I AINT GOING NO WHERE.
Be looking for that new EP "No Regrets". Soon to come.
Lyrics
I know I say I’m tight and i know I’m really not
Somedays I wanna wake up dying or maybe just get shot
See I’ve had it up to here, and I’m sick of what I hear
I hate going to the mall and walking around in fear
Afraid someone older than me will come walking from the rear
Push me in the back and leave me stranded there
See I tried to grin and bare, and act like it don’t hurt
But on the inside I know I’m a worthless piece of dirt
I’m trying to get signed but people tell that I suck
So what if I’m wrong for trying to make a couple bucks
So I don’t have to feed off of my family
I know I’m not the best lyrically standing
I know we going broke and I’m blamin it on me
Cause when I was little I wanted everything I seen
And I know it sounds mean
But when I look in the mirror I hate everything I see
I never knew that life could come down so quick
And it’s making me sick
And I know my voice sucks but I’m stuck with it
See I know ill get made fun of for crying on this track
So someday I wish I was lying on my back
I wish I didn’t feel like that
And I wish I had a girl to stand and support
But I got no one so I’m just standing here pouting
My heart out to you
My eyes are filled and I can’t take much more
But I’m pour as fuck
And I’m stuck, outta luck
Trying to get a little money so we can pay off the bills
And I’m sorry mom and dad for making yall feel ill
I know I’m not perfect but this is who I am
And if I still rap will you still call me fam
And most of the times I feel like quitting
It’s not as easy admitting
That you suck on the mic so you start giving
Your mics and preamps to somebody else
Only money you get is from garage sells
I don’t want your sympathy or your help
I just figured id tell you how I felt
And you can make fun of this, but I did my best
So I can’t till the emptiness inside my chest
So I’m sorry I couldn’t be exactly what you wanted
And I’m sorry for every time I whined and disappointed you
But friends and family I’m glad to be with you
