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#497 today
Peak #148
#48 in subgenre
Peak #16
Author
Rixer Ryda
Rights
2014
Uploaded
August 06, 2014
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MP3 5.3 MB • 160 kbps • 4:39
Lyrics
i pray for the better days even though i know they ain't coming soon but ain't no harm in keeping faith,
i say yeah i got trust issues but that's just my baby mama drama,
never got the heart to say i don't love her cuz shit's real, now my daughter ain't get the experience of
a whole family like i did at one point,
she just wanna roll joints while i'm at work trying to collect coins so we can have enough corn for dinner
but i guess to her i'm such a wrong boy,
never should've kissed her, never should've talked to, never should've loved her,
i never should've done a lot of things but i did, age 17 i went 0-60 from a kid,
tell me how i'm wrong, got 3 jobs but ain't mean shit if i'm always gone,
making only $850 every month, tell me how that is when i'm losing sleep for every check,
fucked up for the $775 of rent not including the cost for the ComEd, so stressed ain't no
calming down now,
the struggle's real, fuck bills, i steady be on the reload of them blue, yellow, and white pills,
so low, down, and dirty i could kill, so broke i might steal.
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i pray to my God, i pray to the Lord, i pray to my God, i pray to the Lord,
i hope to hold my composure,
i hope to hold my composure and not choke on those words, no.
i'm living those times where i might snap like that (like that?) like i don't give a fuck no more,
with a pistol in my hand and a bottle in my palm, i'm about to lose it all,
i tried to love a girl but she's gone, used to be us against the world, now i'm standing back
against the wall cuz i'm rolling solo dolo, middle finger in the air screaming YOLO,
i'm only being honest when i say i don't care if i gotta do it by myself with the welfare
if it's something i gotta fulfil with my barehands i won't deal with negativity on the
most real,
i'm the most poor until i pop four pills and turn the barrel to this cold steele,
i'm hungry enough to rob, snuff, i'm gon' steal, survival instinict to get what i really need,
i see you trying tuck away that hand with the diamond ring,
you ain't really gon' be able to runaway from my '99 caravan with the double sliding doors,
just waiting for you to come out of work so we can go home,
take all your stuff and lock it up while the gas is running with no flame, that's the feeling
of my broken heart to these cold veins,
can't afford to be crying to God while he pours rain to my lost soul, that's so vain,
just wanna end it so young like Cobain,
tried meditating, i go insane, tried loving women, they all same,
shit happens for a reason, that's my saying, reason why i hold close my knife for,
ain't dirty cuz i steady still try that 9-5 though, it's been 4 times in one week i've
been talked to by 5'0,
gotta get a lawyer but ain't got dough, i gotta get on my grind and do what i gotta
do,
i don't do stupid shit so i still wake up and see my daughter, it's true, gotta love to be
a father, it's cool, can't wait to see her up smiling up in pre-school,
i'm not trying to act hard, take it as is, these are my thoughts, every word comes my heart,
no lyricist to write my hardships,
no one forcing you to bump this, my brain was born with a short twist, horrocore and cold fist,
that's why i'm cold as ice when i wrote this,
i hope to one day recover from sinning but everyone knows the devil's alive and keeps winning,
stay on your knees with that chain and keep praying,
people think feelings are a game, 'til then, keep playing, cuz every night i pray, yeah, every night i pray.
[chorus]
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