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Progressive / electronic / rock / rap Whatever I feel is right
The Trying. A name representing something we must constantly be doing in our lives. This is the epitome of myself. This is my space without restrictions. The personal/political - inseparably wound.
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Author
Chris Kaetzel
Uploaded
September 14, 2013
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MP3 3.7 MB • 128 kbps • 4:01
Lyrics
Trees climb me while watering my wings weighed down with carbon
I'm drowning a bucket with the bass of life before you kick it
Thump
Thump
Thump
Listen to the submarine rev
Elation!
Wherein lays her lies infinitely as an infant
It's all in your head
It's all in your head
It's sawing your head
It's all in your lead
Bang Bang!
Semi-automatic fun
Shooting holes in my lungs so I can breath underwater
So I can swim to my death bed in disguise
These guys are raping my androgyny
Telling me what to be when all I want to be is to be me
Made-up mirrors reflecting your disgust
A catalyst for your construct constructed only for the purpose to deconstruct a function
Tear it up
Tear it down to the ground in the shape of a frown
But I'm smiling
It doesn't matter if it's genuine
Because you're not seeing it anyway
Your eyelids that you painted black and white can't see it anyway
Because while you were pushing kids down
on the play ground,
I was dressing up and singing into a tiny plastic microphone
attached to a cassette recorder
And I wrote songs about monsters and love and about brothers
I never had because I wanted a male to love but never had one
Paternal eclipses shadow eternal ellipses
showing me what's in store
But this liquor store has been robbed at phallus pointing right into her mouth
And from there all of it went south
So while you were wrestling with your dad in the backyard I was wondering when mine would get out of jail
And while you were playing football with the neighborhood boys I was already confused
as to why I had no preference for the sexuality I was experiencing with the boys, with the boys, with the boys, and the girls
I am not rejecting all of your masculinity
I just refuse to accept it
The status quo has got to go
A status quo designed around your genital status, ignoring generations of quoted wise people from every apparatus
Stop raping my androgyny
My mind is open but that doesn't mean you can dump your sh** into it
Pump
Pump
Pump
Cock
Cock
Cock
And I have dreams of things you make me ashamed of
But I just yearn for the actions, not the person my dreams always seem to remember
Dismember body parts of incestuous revulsion and desire until we can pretend it doesn't exist
And before this, I was taught by who I suspect was a rape victim
What the f*** is wrong with my house?
I am not sexually confused, only amused
And you can keep raping my androgyny, my identity, but you will not leave a bruise
You will not camouflage this rouge
I'm standing in a restaurant - bathroom
checking my make up - and the door swings open so I immediately wash my hands because I'm afraid for them to see me liking me in the way I like being seen
Can you see me?
Do you see me?
Will you see me?
What will you see when you see?
I stand before you as a weak, but growing incarnation of that which our elders reject and attempt to protect while the Pink Lady screams, "Fight! Fight! Fight!"
That's right!
That which is right is worth undergoing plight
because although the world is dark and filled with the pseudo-righteous, we can see the light
It is not the light you see
It's on a different frequency
It permeates those who seek to be free of a toxic culture
I am only hazardous to an insecure immune system
Abused systems that are
inherently discriminant of identities
created by the reflections of that very system
which systematically breaks us down and
tell us how we must live in order to be free
How we must live in order to see
a world that appears secure yet we walk on pins and needles allowing that which is feeble to stab the bottoms of our feet
Stop pretending this is divine when it's all assembly line
I'm not bending natural law, only a theory
Don't show your teeth when all I want is something healthy
This isn't about me
This is about all of us
So please don't sh
