Regret and sorrow plagued my conscience daily. I wrote this one about those times we all have. faking a smile when we are hurting inside.
Lyrics
it's not enough that I forgive myself
I often wonder if I really have anyway
it hurts too much to think like this
late at night when I still can't fall asleep
I can't stop thinking about the secrets I still keep
it's like a scab that never goes away
I might be smiling but I'm sad
and if you think it's not that bad
I'll show you just how good I can fake it
I noticed you reached out your hand
but I just turned away
cuz I wouldn't want to drag you down with me
I remember when we were just kids
and I was young and wild
what happened to the songs
I used to sing to you
seems like it gets harder to recall
a time when only love mattered
I must have dropped my heart
somewhere along the way
I might be smiling but I'm sad
and if you think it's not that bad
I'll show you just how good I can fake it
I noticed you reached out your hand
but I just turned away
cuz I wouldn't want to drag you down with me
I was only afraid for the moment
that I stepped off that ledge I was falling
into your arms and I knew that I'd be safe
but I must have been falling too fast for you
I might be smiling but I'm sad
because it hurts so f***ing bad
you can't imagine just how far I'll take it
by the time I saw your outstretched hand
I'd already fell and lost my way
and I'm still reaching out
even though the moments gone away
