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War Machine
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2010
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September 08, 2011
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MP3 5.8 MB • 128 kbps • 6:28
Lyrics
Last time I saw you was through watery eyes
A part of me died when I had to say goodbye
Forever I cry, but now I know why, uh
You weren’t there for me, I
Guess jail was the place to be, now you see
The aftermath, the constant path
The everlasting sadness wrath
Do the math, see the state of misery that I’m under
Duckin for cover, cuz I’m always the forever runner
Always wondered, when my father was comin home
Waitin at my kindergarten fence all alone
Now I’m grown but the memories are still wit me
He’s in Italy and someone that I’ve barely seen
My mama tried foolin me, said he had to split
Cuz his mama was sick, and I believed every bit of that lie
Wonderin why he couldn’t come back, and if he’d even try…
All these battles that rattle within my brain and heart
Since my start, always tearin me a part
Always wantin to see and be with my father for once
Feelin like a dunce for goin on those hunts
Tryna find a dad that’s always on my mind
Checkin behind every corner, now lets hit rewind
To the day I came into this world
I’m a boy but gettin raised like a girl cuz
My father wasn’t there for me, I
Guess jail was the place to be, cry
All the sadness within my mind, die
The only way that I’ll be free, now I know why
My father wasn’t there for me, I
Guess jail was the place to be, cry
All the sadness within my mind, die
The only way that I’ll be free, from agony and misery
I came into this world cryin, and I’ve been cryin ever since
I’ll take you back to my birth, as I reminisce
Bliss is what was missin from the situation
Workin in jail was my father’s current occupation
He was stationed in organized crime
When I’m born he won’t be out of jail in time
I arrive – a bastard son in line for downers
The first time I saw my dad was during visiting hours
He ran that jail, caused riots and outbreaks
You got deported outta Canada for God sakes
What a mistake, you glaciated my fate
Fillin me up with hate, wait
Did you have to be a bad guy
Growin up, everybody’s tellin me a lie
I’m only getting raised by women, cuz you are missin
But my anger and rage had got me constantly slippin
The only way to handle me was through discipline
There was hardly a time when I wasn’t hittin
Intimidation was passed down
Just my father’s name was a shiverin sound
There goes Antonio Fiore with all his pride and glory
For sure he was somebody but he left behind his son
I guess he’d rather hold a gun
My father wasn’t there for me, I
Guess jail was the place to be, cry
All the sadness within my mind, die
The only way that I’ll be free, now I know why
My father wasn’t there for me, I
Guess jail was the place to be, cry
All the sadness within my mind, die
The only way that I’ll be free, from agony and misery
They say ya can’t miss what ya never had
Well f*** that, how come I feel so god damn bad?
Always mad at my father for leavin me
Alone with my mom, making me girlie
But I’ve come to accept the way I am
Even though my father wouldn’t understand
How’s a man supposed to be emotional
Care and cry, and think that love is wonderful
Well I’m that guy cuz I didn’t have a father there
Sayin prayers that maybe one day he’ll care
But that’s not the way it was planned to be
Destiny had got the better of me
Doomed to see my father only one time
When I was six, and I thought that he was slime
Out of rage he hit my back from behind
I just ran to my mother where I cried
And wah wah, was the sound – I just f*** in whined
Still cryin like I really wished that I would die
I wasn’t even supposed to be alive
My mom couldn’t have kids – a miracle I survive
Inside is all this raging, flaming anger
Only love can be gauging and taming my danger
I may have power but I cower, it’s a bother
All this time wishin that I coulda known my father
My father wasn’t there for me, I
Guess jail was the place to be, cry
All the sadness within my mind, die
The only way that I’ll be free, now I know why
My fath
