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(hook):
this is my real life, a chapter in the book
go ahead open it up, and take a good look
the life through my eyes, the things that i see
no fiction no ending, the diary of me
verse 1:
here goes my story, begins at one
easier than most, its harder than some
back to september, 8th 1986
the day i was born parents swore i was sick
head needs to be fixed, been through the drama
i've fought a monsta, call him my brotha
been abused and accused, pulled me by my hair
shit can get bizzare, got smacked with a chair
parents didnt stop him, my friends didnt know
never cared to ask, found out in this flow
shit spins my head, just like a dancer
and to make it worse, dad had lung cancer
figured bro would kill me, family ruined my health
to let him do it?, i would do it myself
mom rejected me since i was a baby
i had one respect, grandma didnt hate me
but five years ago, she just passed away
and until this day, everynight i pray
a lot of pepole, want my thoughts to be lost
didnt need a gun to get my points across
(hook)x2:
this is my real life, a chapter in the book
go ahead open it up, and take a good look
the life through my eyes, the things that i see
no fiction no ending, the dairy of me
verse 2:
three atempts of suicide that failed
nailed to the floor, woke up each day pale
one day met a girl, taught me a lesson
she showed me love, was out of depression
but time and time it came back to attack
and eventually it had set me off track
i lost my first love, isolated myself
i gave it my all poured her with wewalth
not riches and money, feelings and secrets
she understood me, couldnt believe it
i hate myself, just wanna be known
back where i started, again i was alone
to make wounds worst, i was failing school
i felt sad, i felt bad, and i felt like a fool
i needed to focus and hear my own words
i look back at things, like a rear view mirror
all of a sudden, things started to change
dad started to care, my mom did the same
physical abuse stops, and verbally starts
my heart together, no longer apart
my brother never, touched me again
about my first love, havent talked since then
(hook)
verse3:
things are better now, mind got scarred shit
in everyones life, there is some hard ship
i was never rich, i was never poor
i aint from the hood, i've havent been to war
now im fortunate, the past starts to end
got parents that care, a loving girlfriend
no one will ever, know like my first love
whenever lifes rough, i'll keep my head up
taking night school, tryin to graduate
taking paths and steps, tryin to elevate
dont expect too much, dont dream too little
just take each problem, solve them like a riddle
confusing at times, have faith in the mind
got friends and family, let the forces combine
be glad ya got help, cause problems are known
i was unfortunate, i've always been alone
(hook)
