A song I wrote after my first real love died. More than a friend, more than a brother, I miss you.
Written the night after my friend and first love died in a car accident in 1991. I wrote this as a gift to his family.
Old friend I love you. Have I ever told you that?
Old friend I'm gonna miss you. I wish you'd just come back.
A light in my world. Someone to dispel my pain.
When my world crumbled, you'd try to keep me sane.
You never understood me, but still you let me be.
Where are you?
The time I abandoned you, I know I caused you pain.
Still you came back to me and everything was still the same.
Those afternoons together when no one else was there,
we'd laugh we'd sing we'd dance around;
sometimes we'd cry in despair.
We shared some precious moments that no one can take away.
Can you hear me?
The dream we made together, what happens to them now?
You left me hear to carry on, should I realize them somehow?
To say we're only brothers really isn't fair.
The grand schemes we planned together, now do you not care?
I need you more than ever. Why did you have to die?
I love you!
Old friend, you're gone now. I guess we'll all survive.
Old friend, I want to tell you, you really touched my life.
I'll always see you smiling. I'll think about your laugh.
I'll listen to your favorite music, but it will not bring you back.
I have to let you go now. But I won't forget.
I miss you.
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