i made this shit for my son...
most of yall aint gonna feel it...
i dont give a fuck tho,
to me this is the realest shit ive ever made.
Story behind the song
when i wrote this shit, i was at rock bottom for real... i was plannin' on leavin' kentucky and chasin' this music dream... in the end, i just made this song and snapped back into reality.
Lyrics
the feelin' of leavin' without sayin goodbye...
quietly i packed up all my shit - bus leaves at 6:45...
walked up the stairs to stare in ya eyes a final time...
i laid down beside u and whispered that it would be alright...
took the wallet size picture off a the desk - slid it in my pocket...
kissed you on your cheek and said - son - i'll be back - i promise...
cuz.. there comes a time... when u - gotta decide...
if u - gonna bet the pot... or just - struggle in life...
so i took a chance... hopin' that u can forgive me if i fail...
cuz if i stay now we'll never get to go anywhere but here...
im leavin' my heart... way back home in kentucky...
for the chance to be somethin'... ...but i want u to kno that i love u.
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i never meant to make u cry...
things aint the same and i dont kno why...
i think about u every day...
sad cuz your so far away...
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i wanna be able to give u everything youve ever wanted...
cant let u end up like me... broken, distorted...
u need to do what ya mama says - finish school, one day become a man...
and i aint never been known to do much right, but yet i hope and i pray for that...
...and so the bus stops in nashville, tennessee...
feelin like im walkin around wit a cloud rainin' down on top of me...
im so alone wit... nowhere to go...when i...
come on back home, will u... still love me so...
even tho im a regular failure - just like your grandma tells ya...
my mind keeps runnin' in circles makin' tonight seem like forever...
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im an idiot for not bein there to change your diapers...
im sorry that me an ya moma have problems an always fightin'...
a never ending song... my life is like a thunderstorm...
but your only here for that 1 moment in time an then your gone...
theres money in this... i kno there is.. i gotta get it...
but really your the only reason that my world keeps on spinnin'...
why we sufferrin' while these other rappers lovin' it...
ima go get our piece of that shit regardless if they wanna give it.
but i was just thinkin' bout u... i gotta go for now...
im sendin' whatever i make 2nite 2morro in the mail...
