as i look behind me its dark and haunting i see the tracks of you in my life as I try to shake the memories, of the hell uve put me thru everyday i still wake up next to you deep in my heart i always cry but damned if ill shed a tear trying take you out of my life the choice is not mine chorus: searching for the strength to let you go its such a wasted thought tryin to make anything right stepping forward to fall down your addiction will be the death of me shattered, torn and stomped into the ground I cant see you clearly Your blurry in my mind its only when u take me to that place u seem to want to live that my life starts to rain (the tears i cry) all these years darkness and fear of what tomorrow will bring even when im full of joy you drag me down again I dont share the choices you make sitting and watching is just as insane the pain lies and pointless excuses hiding the truth of this life