produced by Katastrophe
beat by Devize
Story behind the song
it's about my ex gurl-friend (yes I'm a female)
Lyrics
pain in my heart subsides but never the bruising
started out 2-sided now it’s me you’re using
seems as though I was the one that you were choosing
an unknown battle and didn’t know I was losing
my open heart led to it’s constant abusing
I’m in this love and I’m so sick of the chasing
confused emotions, information’s all displacing
you claim to love me but I’m hearing much different
with the money came a love that was consistent
never knowing on that green it was contingent
this so called love’s one way, no longer astringent
2 years of my life and all I got are empty words
a kid that’s yours and I’ve yet to see the verbs
the burn in my heart, lost kisses on my lips
no longer yearning for your tongue between my hips
boo this love’s sinking faster than Holy ships
you knew exactly what I wanted to hear
said all the words to calm and comfort my fears
the only one for whom I’ve shed so may tears
she’s not worth my time; that’s my realization
I’m hereby ending this crude confrontation
in my thoughts “forever” was our destination
but the dishonestly led to your fornication
and it’s blatantly true that our thoughts differ,
my heart’s hardened and becoming much stiffer
cold emotions, no longer am I your up-lifter
the one you called your rock can’t be sedimentary
this love thing was new, an unfamiliarity
what I felt wasn’t shallow or elementary
was it naïve of my emotional immaturity
to think that you felt the same way, deep as me?
thought our love was true but all I heard from you was lies
face defiled by the many tears that I cried
and now you're telling me you wanna be friends?
I'm sorry baby, but this is gonna have to end (2x)
you say you’re friends, but it’s not what you’re portraying
and in my heart of heart I know that you’re betraying
no longer will there be any more delaying
we’re done and there’ll be no more decaying
once upon a time you were my temptation
but with difficulty I’ve reached this revelation
you stated but never showed your appreciation,
no more future hopes of reconciliation
praying to GOD that they’re only allegations
I hate to say it but doubt is the motivation,
did my eyes deceive me and take a vacation
to cheat on me after professing dedication?
directly to you I’m bringing these accusations
can I hope that truth leads this conversation?
though loving you was never my obligation
it came natural much like it’s termination
sometimes I can’t believe how she told me that she cared
she lied to me, while in my very eyes she stared
the lame excuse was that my feelings would be spared
the thought of loneliness is what really had you scared
my pain stained face can’t hold all these words
‘cause baby girl I’m telling you that you was my world
my precious diamond, baby girl, my black pearl
baby daily you were mentioned throughout my speech
I thought this love thing that we had was unique
it’s unbelievable, the thought of you would get me weak
we ended “us” at what I thought was a peak
but even then a future for us was looking bleak
painted a picture of my oh so perfect past
and a relationship I thought would always last
but now I’m seeing with more clarity through this glass
my heart of gold was diminished to heart of brass
thought our love was true but all I heard from you was lies
face defiled by the many tears that I cried
and now you're telling me you wanna be friends?
I'm sorry baby, but this is gonna have to end (out)
