A remix of Beautiful Addiction originally by Eligh & Amp, Grieves, and Black Hazzard.
I'm thrown back but only by photographs, I'm going mad
Knowing that I'm pronely lonely only have
My phony self; scold me I'll dart, run, and hide
Hold me closely and I'll put my heart inside your gun
It's fully loaded, don't goad just do it
I knew my future when I gave the bullet
Pull it. Please don't stall the unpreventable
You're foolish even stupid if you thought this could end so well
Well, did you think that we were meant for heaven
Baby I was born in hell, wherever you were sent from
Maybe you should head home
Before my beautiful depression sets on
The sun could rise, and shine its rays
Away with the clouds that defeat the moment
Your gun could jam, and deny my fate
Our love laureated in a wreath of roses
The path I chose to walk alone it's
A road well known full of broken dreams
Sad, not hopeless. Hope is always open
for the taking so I'll take it in hopes to be free from this beautiful
Verse 2:
You're a demon but I'm feigning for your love
Even when you leave me bleeding screaming out my lungs
Even when you beat me treat me as the heathen I've become
I don't want to run from the feeling that you bring me
It's sweetly fleeting, discreetly incomplete
It greets me entreatingly to see whats underneath
All the skin and bones that give a home to this wicked thing
In the morbid mirror saw the horrid creature that was me
The glass shatters, tiny fragments reflecting back
Bad habits and patterns that seek and reek havoc
A bleak debbie downer freak who needs to get past it
To see that he's damaged and bleeding so bad but
No bandage could manage to heal him quite fast enough
Lacks the blood to start to cover up the truth that's smashed
Into pieces on the floor and jesus even in the dark
You can see the shards expressing his soul and heart
He picks a hauntingly daunting splinter of his past
With his little stem like fingers on the edge trying to grasp
The last root pull it out all the earth is coming with it
Burying myself with my beautiful depression