Dedicated to the memory of my mother, Irene, on her first postumous anniversary, the 80th. She's departed two months ago. The music expresses my grief, rememberance, and other feelings which I cannot find names for. Maybe you can help.
The piece is still very wanting at various levels. It's what I was able to concretize in the short spans of freetime on two months of my frantic, pathetic life.
The first part includes ideas from some 30 years ago, when I was a teen still living with her. Happy times. Hint for the form of this song: she liked to waltz. The lyrics express the "two sorrows" explained in the elegy I wrote and read at the funeral (reproduced in the blog).
The second part is clearly a sketch for a "Grand Requiem" for full orchestra. This surely will be under construction for a long time. Personally it connects to the memory of other beloved deads, including my father Marius (1909-1968) and his brother my uncle Rafael (1912-1983). Morning for Irene has lead me to these thoughts. So, this second part, lyricless, and the planned Grand Requiem, goes out to all beloved deads of all people.
I sing and play the recorder here. The rest is by computer. So, this is very much open to collaboration. Any comments very welcome. Thanks.
('Cause I haven't coped with it yet.)
Oh, mother, why did you leave before the end?
Oh, mother, the universe didn't understand!