Originally titled "PLAGUED" we ended up changing it to LOSING YOU as a line from the movie THE CROW SALVATION where he says "ERIN...IM LOSING YOU" but also a song in secret dedication by the guitarist.
Story behind the song
I(guitarist) was in a very low depressing mood about a problem with my girl and believing her dad hated me and i was gonna lose her. a new question then arose after i read something that left me wondering if she was really as serious as she claimed to be...er profile read under martial status WHY CANT I CHOOSE ONE...leaving me to wonder if i was number 2 or something...and never writing down a single lyric...i wrote this on guitar...recorded it and began singing from the heart...not one slurred word...and the first recording was it...all the words made up as i went along. To wonder if i was losing her.
Lyrics
Trying harder
holding on to you
but i cant hold on too long
in a different world
in a different time
im losing you right now
and i cant hold on any longer
and you know why im trying
inside im still dying
from the last time
from the first time
and its still happening
whys it have to be this way
i dont know why
im trying every day
to make it last longer
last forever
then i realize happiness comes around never
i dont want you to leave
im sorry you have to go
its not my problem
its only the pain i have to show for
its your demise
and tears fall from my eyes
its an question i wont have an answer to
when it comes to you
here we go again
im crying
its dark in here
why im waking up to visions
nightmares
too many screams
waking from dreams
and i find you
travelling away
out the window
walking away from me
and i cant let you go
but your already gone
and its not my problem
but the tears are falling faster now
harder now
and i dont know how to let you go
and im trying harder and you wont ever know
this is my problem now
and i cant let go
could you see inside of me
if i let you be
if i let you see
what im feeling now
would you still listen
or would you let me go
without letting me go
or would lie to me
its hard to see
im trying to be the best that i can be
but its not helping
its not helping
its not helping
its not helping
its not helping
and i know
tomorrow isnt gonna be the same
without you here
and your gone away
staying on
im holding on
and your gone away
and i cant stay
ive gone away
gone away