Phantoms cousins cousin? on the beat, sorry man used it for something deep haha
Lyrics
i dont wanna, see you going, i never wanna see you go
i wait for you, by the window, that i'll smell perfume everytime wind blow's
i use to knock on that door when you was in
you ya used to smile so wide, like i was it
like i brought happiness & i brought bliss
and i thought for once, damn, i actually slept
but that was nightmare's, we always shared something
no tossing and turning, no level's like a bunk bed
we was one, typical things like til sun set
this aint the movies, yo, this is us here
and i'm awlays like fuck tears
your always telling me to face up...but
my chin don't seem to go that high
lately, why, drug's, me, myself & i
you, was, wide eye'd like you felt me die
i thought, shit, i buried myself that july
aint the same since & my life was portrayed
in a way, that picasso couldnt of ever painted
our love was powerful, like metaphoric sayings
where he died that night the day she over dosed on pain killers
...inside, it's inside, where it mean's something
it's when the party's over & there aint peep's coming
at the end of the day, alone & your sleep's buggin
and your buzzin aint nobody that wants to speak on it
cause you can't escape yourself
might aswell take the mask off & face yourself
hatred's hell, love prison break's & jail's
it's seem's either side, hurt worm's it's way so well
it'll break any surface you layed & shelved
dust collect's, new thing's become old pal's
a familar friend, here we go again
mum's alcohol, past suicide trend's
aunt's, uncle's, addict's, know it all so well
and i dont cry for me, i cry for you & them
and i think, i wish i could forget but damn
if i dont keep these memories, how do i know i even lived
do you, forgive me, for all the shit that i give
i can't help it, i swear, sometimes, i lose sense
of this...world & i need you to guide me
your staring at my eye's but do you really look inside me
like, try me, i changed but ever so slightly
as soon as i recall child memories your crying
cause you know, your son is still alive dad
he seem's so distant sometime's but i'm right here
and as i watch you grow older with your grey hair's
i panic time's running out like it stole, shit
but like you said
your life's at back of you, while my life's ahead
replied, yeah
but as i go there, i wont ever hesisate to turn around again