beat by VTZ. story tellin kinda song. real close to home again.
Lyrics
(Note:: these lyrics may not be exact)
B: Times up. For real. B.. confessin old sins. Tired of puttin this behind me. This is where i used to run to. My past addictions. You. Smile back at me
Hook
Im addicted to you, and im so into you
dunno what i should do, cus i aint livin the truth
Im addicted to you, im really so into you
you make the pain go away, and im livin in you
Im addicted to you, and im so into you
dunno why i cant stop! and im wishin for you
im addicted to you, im really so into you
the whole world go numb you know im still kissin you
Verse 1
hidden behind, veiled shadows, all hail the track ghosts//
who never admit to weaknesses, claimin they blast foes//
when in fact though, all the tough talk is just a dream//
im livin out through my words, wacth me fall apart from my seems//
things aint how they seem, i come straight runnin to you//
you hold me tight and shut me down, each one of us do//
every once in a while, to turn a frown to a smile//
drop dead when you not in me, cleanup in the fourth isle//
dunno what it is about you, your solace, your guile//
or my misguided efforts, to get me outta this mind fold//
lately im depending on you, my life is fending for you//
cant move on without you, im still defending your truths//
that at least a little good can come from it, i cant get enough of it//
me and you can spend some time, im in love with it//
my friends aint like you that much, they tell me to get off you//
dunno who i should choose, which set of lovers im lost to//
Hook
Verse 2
the good vibes is gone now, now we gettin bitter with eachother//
ive fallin deeper in love, so we still hit it wit eachother//
i cant lean off you, and even though ive got another//
now i know you killin me, shoulda listened to my brothers//
now im kinda scared of you, and where this relationship leadin//
and if im leavin you tonight my insides will be bleedin//
im dependent of you, so tell me when are we through?//
when you run out, there aint even bendin the rules//
and when i should choose to move on, evolve as a lyricist//
cause i know the pain of struggle, my God, you hearin this?//
message relay:: so many people knowin this pain//
but aint strong enough, way out or im goin insane//
(Breakdown)
these iron shackles, theyd still hold me
grippin my head and my wrists so coldly
and even now these chains still hold me
to this day, my addictions control me
Hook
Verse 3
get out and move forward, caught in this corridor//
ive lost the first through fourth quarter, i want rematch!//
wakin up one morinin and im feelin likes he's backs//
one who, hold me down, your tiredness i dont need that//
so we spark a couple mtahces kick back and we laugh//
forget about you for a while, this hunger cant feed that//
but when he leave again, we goin right back at it//
hittin and punchin, find myself kickin and cussin//
holes in my bedroom walls, bedroom wars//
i fight with myself, when im searchin for the light of some help//
i been enlightened and well, music brought me outta my shell//
to push you to the back on my mind, and in fact i will find//
myself among others, killers - dealers - and muggers//
no love for addicts - druggies weildin weapons and mothers//
push you to the back of my mind, my savior//
to hide me from reality, what i leave on this piece of paper//
Hook
Verse 4
but im over all of that now, i can relfect on that now//
look back on myself aint it funny how that sounds//
how i thought all i need was you, but you aint pull me through//
you pushed me deeper into doubt, callin me too//
everytime i was alone, i guess suddenly i wasnt//
you was there wit me, when it was hard and when it wasnt//
but i aint frontin, we all finna make mistakes in the past//
these demons that been plaugin me, im facin at last//
im tired of this misdirection, misconceptions//
if you still think im talkin bout a girl homie you missed the message//
this the ressurecti