Story about the incarceration and eventual escape of a mental institute patient (me). Has a lush & complex arrangement, and features arguably the best verses on the album.
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Story behind the song
On the surface, it's about the incarceration and eventual escape of a mental institute patient. But as always, this song is really a personal metaphor. I'll let the listeners form their own interpretation of the lyrics, but it has a definite meaning to myself.
The arrangement was another hard one, cuz it's got so many layers to it. I wanted it to have the strings & piano-playing of a classical track, & getting that right nearly drove me to madness. I think the verses may be the best i've ever written.
It's also the 1st song i ever wrote after i 1st decided to quit dumbing down my music. I crave knowledge, and i finally wanted to have songs where i could exhibit my true vocabulary & intelligence. Before i started this album, i made a vow to myself that i'd only write what's in my heart, & this was the 1st real example of that.
Lyrics
Depraved
V1
Imprisoned in a containment pod of glass
submerged in a liquid to soothe the pain
body limp, no pulse, but they keep my living
can't tell if it's a dream or I've gone insane
time has become my biggest enemy
I must make my escape from this facility
before they finish with me and have me put to sleep
but I can't seem to use my dark energies
daily, haunted by the cursed memories of when they
captured me cuz of the sins of my past
I'd taken up an offer to kill a senator
that was about to expose an uncover clash
so the CIA ordered his fall, so i made a few calls
and I had my niggaz make a bloody mess of his chest
but when I went to collect on my debt
I was ambushed by the cops and I met my arrest
then the feds held my trial in secrecy
talkin bout they're gonna recruit me for the FBI
but i was like "man, fuck that, I'd rather fry..."
so they set me up an recommended double life
but they wanted to condemn my soul, so they rigged
the jury's vote even though there was no way they could show
I was guilty but they wanted me controlled
so they sentenced me to go with no possibility of parole
and them hoez in the courts wouldn't hear my appeal
but my lawyer and the D.A. cut me a deal
they said I'd only haveta do eight years in here
as long as I was good and took my daily pills
but when I got to this bitch I was beaten and chained
(you mean they fucked you up?) yeah, they got me man
but once I figure out a way to get this straight jacket off
I guarantee all you hoez are gonna feel my pain
cuz the anger within's impatiently raising
to the point it's about to burst through my skin
so I pace with a grin, just praying and waiting
for the day I can get my revenge
then you'll pay for your sins, but until then
I'ma play along with a smile
but ya'll better stop me now while I'm small
or I'ma grow large and burn this bitch down
Chorus
They're calling me (calling me) depraved like i'm neurotic
so they bottled me (bottled me) in a cage like a twisted project
so i wait, and replenish my depleted strength
so that i can slay, all my captors then i'll have my revenge
V2
Strapped down to the stretcher like a captured deer
terrified by the cries of my tortured peers
as tha demons in tha white coats sliced them up
experimenting with them 'til their screams are all I hear
and my vision's a blur cuz they drugged me up
and they injected the virus into my veins
I feel it burning from within, tryin to fight the pain
but I can't so I passed out from the strain
and when I came to I was black and blue
and them devils had returned me to my padded Hell
tha drugs slowly wore off as I licked my wounds
and as I paced the room I realized that there
was no way my lawyer couldn't have set me up
he's probably sittin at home having a laugh at me
so I laid on my bed so I could concentrate
then contacted my doggs telepathically
then I ordered them to ambush his residence
so they swiftly struck like a pestilence
and when he woke up he found his whole family slain
that's his reward for doubting my intelligence
cuz I learned from Napoleon to crush my foez
and Machiavelli helped me see that sympathy's for hoez
while Malcolm X kept me close to all my folks
Jeffrey Dhalmer helped me cook a good casserole
as for my other foez when I break out this hole
I guarantee they'll be wishing they'd shot me
cuz i'ma strike with a massive onslaught of tanks
ain't no mutha fuckin way you're gonna stop me
cuz if I take my rightful place on my throne I'm warning you now
you'll regret not stopping me when I was small
cuz when I grow large I'ma burn this bitch down
Chorus
V3
I awaken still bitter from the night before
stretched out on the floor but I'm far from bored
cuz for the last few weeks i've mapped out the place
but since they think they're safe my efforts went ignored
I found just the right temperature to melt the doors
and figured out an es