Real personal shit. HBA Week 1. http://www.hiphopscenes.com
Lyrics
When it first happened I was three, the vibrant seed
My mind state collapsed from what I just seen
My fathers on the floor, body covered with blood
Overwhelmed with grief, I creeped but fell to a thud
That was too much for young eyes, too much for young I
& I've been meaning to tell you this but I've been tongue tied
tongue tied, tongue... musta been a frog in my throat
fog in my hopes, and i ask myself "God can I cope?"
God will you show? remorse, hell I sob till im soaked
With intentions to cutt my throat cuz you robbed all my hope
So I'm not to be blamed when I question your existence
It's hard to explain but my pain bears resistence
Engraved on my grave it will say that a stray
Went away as a slave and his paganous days
Are over, over and the tears on this page
Are as real as I feel in the fear of this rage
Hook:
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
Verse 2
Theres no mistakenin her crying, and I know she aint lying
I'm on my hands and knees now I know my pops is dying
Everything is chaos, yelling and screaming
Somebody please tell me that I feel and I'm dreaming
Cuz I don't wanna believe, & even though I still conceived
And ever since, I never wore my heart on my sleeve
I'd hear parents saying "what's wrong with that child?
How come he don't play? Why don't he ever smile
Why he always so stern? Why he always so curt?
Why don't he ever learn? Why he always so hurt?
Is it because he's sad? or maybe he's just mad?"
"Or maybe it's the fact that he just lost his Dad
He's shy but he's smart, remembers everything you say
Inside he's just scarred things just haven't gone his way"
I'd hear my mom say that, all the while with grimace
She smiled when she looked at me, I was his spittin image
Hook:
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
So now I guess you know why we have so much beef
God you gotta know that everytime i grit my teeth
I'm thinking of every single, tear that's been on my cheek
Thinking of every single, year that's been lookin bleak
Every year that's been meek, every wrong that's been done
Every time I've been weak, and every time that I've run
That I've run that I've run... you don't deserve my praise
I feel like i've been picked a part in numerous ways
And now I'm an eagle flying with a broken wing
My flight is full tilt my momentum half swing
I'm flying over the middle of a domineering sea
With nothing in the horizon but a reflection of me
When I see me I see him, with a look of disaproval
Telling me to trust more cuz my love shouldn't be frugal
I will never forget you even after my life is done
Just like the moon can never forget the son(sun)
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/
I always cry cuz you "broke my heart"
You dissappeared when you "broke my heart"/
I wanna die cuz you "broke my heart"
Now I have no fear cuz you "broke my heart"/