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Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #11,243
Peak in subgenre #7,058
Author
Epic
Uploaded
May 20, 2003
Track Files
MP3
MP3 3.0 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Story behind the song
Just needed to get my father's story outta me.
Lyrics
Straight out the womb into a group home, no love was known
Parents too stressed to care for me, growin up alone
Foster house was violence prone, getting beat with belts and stones
Constant struggle to keep my mind from goin
Moms and pops kept my five siblings, left me here to rot
When will the insanity stop?
All I want is to feel the warmth of a happy home
Hear my mom call me her own, my dad say how big I’ve grown
But hate is all I’ve known
Eatin me up inside, destroyin my pride, no energy to continue
Constantly cryin eyes, s***, only if they knew what I’ve been through
Maybe they’d take me back, try to make right what they f***ed up
But there’s no chance of that, eternity of misery’s where I’m stuck
Real life strife and struggles, no lies
Just a glimpse at the world through my father’s eyes
No stories, no bulls***, just one man’s ties
Just a glimpse at the world through my father’s eyes
Advance to high school years felt inferior to my peers
Took up alcohol and drugs to try and hide my fears
But it was in vain, I remained the same nothing was gained
Didn’t think anything could change the drama that I sustained
Through all the pain I held onto the thought of a better life
At night I’d lie awake thinking of ways to make it right
Then out of the blue the most beautiful girl appeared
Made me feel all right, wiped away my tears
Knew this woman would be my wife, souls intertwined
With her I’d spend every moment of my life, til the end of time
Gave birth to my son, couldn’t explain the way I felt
Was like winning the lottery after years of bad cards dealt
My flesh, my blood, my bones, how could I have known
How little time I had with him, wish I could’ve froze time in stone
Real life strife and struggles, no lies
Just a glimpse at the world through my father’s eyes
No stories, no bulls***, just one man’s ties
Just a glimpse at the world through my father’s eyes
Marriage ended in divorce, not all was lost
Still had my son, felt like my life was still on course
But depression set in, had thoughts of my past
Dreamed of the foster home and the abuse of times past
Started drinkin again to subdue the open wounds
Couldn’t stop one night, drinkin myself to my tomb
Blackin out feelin life being cut short, my last thought
Don’t let my son grow up fatherless without support
