sneak preview track from LAst Man Standing 2
Story behind the song
the falls i went through the past year.. and life
Lyrics
As years pass I can feel my final days/ coming closer as I'm breathing so I wrote my final page/
but still/ i finally see the tears that i was hiding/ through these years that I was fighting/ all these demons that was rising/
but I'm trying/ and I'm trying but I'm lying/ cause I'm dying/ and I'm crying to myself/ cause I'm hiding from the truth inside me/
And I never wanted mama to be suffering with this pain and all the struggling/ while she always try to stand beside me/
So many questions always left without an answer/ and so many nights I would just break into this anger/
cuse I'm losing all my focus/ and I'm hoping that I'm coping/ but I know I'm not controlling/ all this rage and my emotions/
so I'm aiming for a better place/ but I'm falling even deeper cause I'm knowing i wont be able to see my daughters face/
A true disgrace is what I see up in this shattered mirror/ I'm on my knees and crying pain to fill a shallow river/
And empty liquor bottles scattered in my living room/ with flashbacks of all those times the pain was hitting you/
I swear to god I tried my best/ to be the best of them and never be the rest of them but damn I was the rest of them/
I'm moving forward as I'm walking to my death/ but I'm standing in my place to see if any hope is left/
and i'm blind to see the lights so I'm living in the dark/ while I fill this empty hole of what is missing in my heart/
I slept through rainy nights in benches trying to get some rest/ no matter what my mommy always tried to provide the best/
sleeping on the 7 while I'm holding on my sister/ she was 3 and I was 8 and I would sing and always kiss her/
Life wasnt easy but we always found a way to smile/ man of the house but mommy always saw me as a child/
Going broke and now we sleeping in your living rooms/ and it hurt watching mommy getting ridiculed/
i had to make her proud so i paid my own tuition/ but all these ways got me caught up in them insitutions/
And I was sick of living/ wishing I can leave this life/ I prayed to god to please take me from this world of trife/
But then again I had to make it for sake of fam/ work with my naked hands/ while mama's in the sacred land/
and shed my blood/ til my heart stops beating/ cause I promised to my self that I can never be defeated
Never turn your back from those you love.....
because the world will turn its back on you
Never hurt the ones who love
Cause you'll be the oe hurting at the end
Always give them your all
for they too will show you the same
And believe that there is a better day
cause it will come some how some way