A song about a mother and son relationship falling apart.
hiphop
rap
j flow
unsigned rap artist
Story behind the song
My senior year of high school I talked to my mom less and less, we grew apart more with each passing day. Everything in the song is true.
Lyrics
Verse 1:
In my house, things is getting fucked up
I can feel it in the air, these thought’s is corrupt but
They’re still my thoughts, my family ties is tied in knots
Done tried lots of ways to stay close together
It makes me wanna cry when I see something die, that’s rose forever
It hurts feelin that our love is lost, I ask God to get it back what does it cost
But he doesn’t answer, I just get a shoulder colder than frost
Now me and moms barely speak
Our bond is fairly weak, that’s why I’m gone til midnight on the week
And I feel wrong livin in a home where I don’t feel homely
I’m lonely, I feel as though they don’t condone me
But I’m too scared to speak it, so I griddle my teeth
And sink below the surface, just a little beneath
I can’t take it, I swear I’m clothed, why do I feel naked
With out you mom how am I gon make it?
Chorus:
Through and near, with every breath through every tear, listen to me closely, I hope that you can hear my voice these meanings cuz lately things seeming to get out of hand and so I close them to say a prayer, cuz I don’t wanna lose the way you care, it’s right there, I can, I can..
Verse 2:
I’m tryin to put this in retrospective this isn’t one incident, these fights were collective
With all the arguing, and to think you’re suppose to be my guardian
Can I even say you are my friend, when you’re here for me hardly n..
Now when I see you it’s hard to grin, cuz the past leaves me presently scarred within
These feelings are too far to fend, Please here me
Let these words from my lips stick so we can make up
Remember when you ripped my audio tape up? I thought there goes my hopes to fame
Without your support, how am I suppose to reign, I just need to expose my pain my veins withered like a rose that’s drained Jflow, the name arose with shame
My raps laid low, so the words forsaken cuz I’m scared
My nerve is shakin, I’m on the verge of breakin
(Chorus)
Verse 3:
I need help like my hands are full, trying to reach the intangible
Only to get burnt, like I tanned in coal tryin to do things I can’t control
I feel empty, damn my soul
I simply, wanna pursue this career but I’ve stalled a bit sometimes wanna call it quit
Yeah I’ll admit,
It’s true I’ve lied to you have you ever lied to me?
Like bright light a good sons all I’ve tried to be
Cuz surprisingly, sometimes I just want all eyes on me
But FUCK sometimes I gotta say that to get parental advisory
I don’t wanna ‘waist’ this like when you use to be sizing me
These ‘jeans’ are fine with me, in time we see
Anymore it’s hard to hold a conversation
I wonder how you’d react if you this on the station
I’m along frustration and need concentration
Cuz I use to have the key to your heart.. now I’m searchin for the combination
(Chorus)