Managed to drag myself out of this bed
And lift my head
Seeming so pointless to walk
Down this same street again
I see colours, hear sounds,
They surround like memories sinking in
Gotta get out
I can’t shout, but I know
That I’m breaking
Don’t get too close
Just stay right there
I get scared that
You might hear
Sounds of bombshells,
Collisions in my head
And explosions...
WOULD YOU STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY? OH…
IF YOU COULD SEE THE OTHER SIDE OF ME?
I’m not who you think
You can’t put me in ink.
No one will know me
And what is inside, all those things that I hide
In fear that I’ll lose more
But to be free and in need
Or trapped and not—It’s my choice.
And it seems to me that it seems to be
The only
fucking
thing
I’ve got.
Don’t get too close, but stay there for me
I get scared that you might see
Visions of panic
And flashbacks and attacks
My soul aching my scared shaking
And heart breaking, my heart breaks
It exploded
AND DO YOU STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY, NOW?
THAT YOU’VE SEEN THE OTHER SIDE OF ME?
You tell me
We run to
The things that we fear most…
You could tell me
We crawl to
The things that make us run
But I can’t see
Up and through
This cloud to even run from them
But I think that
We run from
The ones that we love most
I think that
We crawl to
All of our addictions
And that’s all I need to know
It’s all I need to know
It’s all I need to know right now