About my country and how i feel....it should be out...beats by abnotic record
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mtc
Story behind the song
My country Philippines...need to say something about the bad side of it
Lyrics
No one knows what scar and bruises i have but let me tell you part of it and this ain't no bullshit
I was 15 years old when i left my country
leaving all things behind including my family
and start all over, man it takes me insanity
but i never felt so sorry
its been two and a half years
and i still dream
of lost faces, unforgetable character
even though i felt like i'm a loser
thats where home is at
and i can't remove all of that
have you ever wonder how it feels like
the loneliness that eat me alive
so i just put my headphones on my ear
and listen to the music behind my fear
put it on so loud so i couldn't hear no word anybodys talking about
take me back to my happy place
and let me live it to my dying days
see the scars as i rest again
i wanna shout so i could release this
and so it won't go back
but i can't help to think, i can't resist
when i'm all alone i wanna go back
to where i started and now i'm all grown up
i'm just 18 and now i can't just lay back
i got a lot of things in my mind
things like what will i do to save my father
from being dept and help him pull out one of his legs
coz we're slipping away
you can't tell me everythings okay
have you heard it in the news
my country is suffering
you can't hear good news about philippines
we'll do anything just to get money and feed our children once a day
you like being ghetto, experience what they do for a living
in the streets sitting in the corner and start begging
or you could do the other way you can pick pocket
or you could do a scam,a racket
or you could buy your loose change for a rugby
and sniff it until you pass out
so you won't be worrried of getting hungry
i've seen there face i don't know how they could still fall asleep
out there in the cold night no food for 72 hours, and all you can drink was a pile of dirty water
all i got was this words and was hoping one of this day it could change the world
but still even though there life was that you can still hear there laugh
the smile that put them through
is there anything we can do
Is god punishing me too
have you tried to look into there eyes
can you see the struggle, the hope when they lay on the concrete eyes on the sky
can you imagine what was their wish
what was on their mind while they can't sleep
the nightmares and nobodys there to hold them
man its just ashamed, why do this things happen
I wanna pray but i don't know how
what to ask for and what to thank about
this pain and tears of my soul
is in so deep nobody knows
but let me say something about it
we are not just some pieces of shit
our blood runs through us deep
if you can only hear us, you know everything i say ain't no bullshit
so when i hear our country or our name put into vain
thats like dying in the worse possible way
and putting us so down, putting us in disgrace
is there gonna be a better place
asnwer the question out of my mouth
can it heal my bruises and scars
can you wipe the tears out of my heart
can you still smile and can you still laugh
after all those things happened through your life so rough