Song About An Ex From a While Ago. I Hate It, N You Hate It.
Eminem - Toy Soldiers (Beat)
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Story behind the song
Song about an Ex
Lyrics
I was another of your scapegoats, your big fuckin excuse//
I was another of your great~jokes, the butt of yur abuse//
I was used ta produce n confuse people wit mistruth//
I was that mistruth in the view of the public too//
I was the dude in a noose hanged in front of yur audience//
I was yur target of misdirected anger n its got~me~bent//
I was yur gaurdian when they started~in wit martyrn//
I was the part~a~men that gave a fuck about ya heart~n~sin//
I was told I'm the reason for breathin as people were teasin//
I was what you'd be dreamin n squeezin every evenin//
I was the believin every little word that you'd be speakin//
I was freakin when you kept decievin I thought we was even//
I was world renowned when I would be~round this total~whore//
I was what we~found ta be rebound but still told~I'm~more//
I was yur fuckin saint who gave you straight respect//
I was so stupid ta think what I showed 'ld ever reflect//
I was everything ya said you were seekin n needin//
I was still bleedin from ma past a treason n weepin//
I was grabbin a hold of every moment we could~grab//
I was remainin ta be the man I always should~have//
I was thinkin you weren't the same as the rest~a~them//
I was thinkin you were a change n held pressidence//
I was depressin~when everything I had was fallin~ta~pieces//
I was takin so much shit for ya you should called~me~Jesus//
I was havin ma other relationships widdle ta nothin//
I was stabbin their hearts ta death just for our nothin//
I was loosin my grasp on reality n slipped~to~far//
I was puttin maself in this shit that just gets~too~hard//
I was carryin you on ma shoulders even as it got colder//
I was givin you too much exposer as I played ya solider//
I was known~for givin you everything ya hands~repore//
I was tired a bein a pon for a bitch no man~addores//
*Hook*
This is everything I had stooped n elevated~too//
Projectin sumin I wasn't, that's why the hell~I~hated~you//
I barely made~it~through, but found out who I was//
I never said it to you, I knew who I truly loved//
(I don't believe all the shit you could put me through)
*Repeat Hook*
*End Hook*
I was around for ya problems through the thick~n~thin//
I was the one who stood up for maself by never givin~in//
I was takin so much shit from everyone in huge~fistfulls//
I was stayin persistant even when it got too~abismal//
I was thinkin this bond wasn't gonna last~n~work//
I was still thinkin that ya hadn't gotten past~him~first//
I was disregaurdin the yur shit ta fufill what I wanted//
I was not attentendin ta the severity of ya non~sense//
I was believin what I wanted ta paint ma picture//
I was tryin ta end it way before but couldn't risk~hurt//
I was always payin more than I could afford//
I was floored when I heard about that baby you'd abort//
I was so fuckin angry for everything this had made~me//
I was happy cuz I was changing n never let you break~me//
I was keepin all ma dignity by never fuckin~you//
I was never givin a shit if that shit disrupted~you//
I was always dissapointed when ever ya spoke//
I was lookin at ya future n knew there was no hope//
I was thinkin that I couldn't persue the emptiness//
I was thinkin I never wanted ta hurt~you by ending~this//
I was writin songs ta help me cope wit it//
I was in a state of mind where I didn't know what exists//
I was finally startin ta piece together the evidence//
I was finally startin ta realize there's no relevance//
*Hook*
Now lemme save ya time, wit this verse I suggest~ya~hate~it//
Cuz we all know this beef between the both of us escalated//
I was so exhausted cuz you were sumin I couldn't process//
It was like what ya said n did was always gonna offset//
I tried distinguish ya speak ta a form a english//
But the thing~is what ya said ta relieve me never relinquished//
An inklin of what I was thinkin in the back~a~ma~mind//
I rarely shared it wit you cuz ya'd always back~it~wit~lies/