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Strictly hip hop, no rap here. Focusing on the positive side but still illuminating the truth.
Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #6,239
Peak in subgenre #3,422
Author
MikeColangelo
Uploaded
November 01, 2004
Track Files
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MP3 5.6 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Lyrics
Yo if you’ve got a real father, then you’re lucky
Cause you’re not like me
But if ya don’t, then listen to the beat…
Yo I was just a kid
And all I remember is
Throat flaring
Yelling, shouting, ridiculing
Eyes widen, disgusted face
No grace
A familiar disgrace
At the Dinner table
Run to my room, my haven, my safe zone
Want to go to school, to be away from home
Want to grow up, and go to school far away from home
To be all alone
Give anything not to deal with this
Not to feel like this
I was miserable
But my problem was simple
I was fatherless
[Growin up you were an alcoholic
Carvin up I hate you dad in my closet
Growin up my father was an alcoholic
Carvin up I hate you dad in my closet
I was fatherless
With my biological father, in the next room over
Don’t bother
To be there
Cause you don’t care
And it’s still unfair
Cause of all those years
That brought all those tears
Now leave me alone
I am on my own
And happy to be
Without the father that made me]
As you unscrewed the bottle
I was my own role model
I think you loved the gin and tonic, more than your own family
Cause you were kind of demonic, to mom, Mel, Michelle, and me
You thought you could buy my love
Be horrible, make me cry, and buy my love
I wasted birthday candles wishing you would change
I can’t handle the fact that you remained the same
You made me want to runaway everyday
In the seventh grade
You gave the very son you made
Feelings inside
That made him contemplate suicide
And I hope now you can tell
That you alone made my life a living hell
You made me fearful and tearful
And for that I hated you
And whether or not I still do is not up to you
I’m simply through, with you
[Growin up you were an alcoholic
Carvin up I hate you dad in my closet
Growin up my father was an alcoholic
Carvin up I hate you dad in my closet
I was fatherless
With my biological father, in the next room over
Don’t bother
To be there
Cause you don’t care
And it’s still unfair
Cause of all those years
That brought all those tears
Now leave me alone
I am on my own
And happy to be
Without the father that made me]
You didn’t give a damn about my college
And I don’t swear in my rhymes so I hope you acknowledge
How much it hurt, for certain
You didn’t care where I went
When the letter was sent
And you overheard I was accepted
You didn’t say a word I was neglected
When I brought my first girl home, you weren’t there but that’s what I expected
You scarred my soul for life
You left my mother, your wife
And to this day you haven’t had the balls to talk to me man to man
I understand that we can’t discuss cause there’s only one man amongst us
I know my father like I know a stranger
Except I know for certain that my father is a danger
To my heart, my soul, and my mind
The one thing I wanna put behind me
But it’s so easy to rewind and see
[Growin up you were an alcoholic
Carvin up I hate you dad in my closet
Growin up my father was an alcoholic
Carvin up I hate you dad in my closet
I was fatherless
With my biological father, in the next room over
Don’t bother
To be there
Cause you don’t care
And it’s still unfair
Cause of all those years
That brought all those tears
Now leave me alone
I am on my own
And happy to be
Without the father that made me]
You never cared for me
I swear you were never there for me
And sayin you were is unfair to me
I think I would know cause I’m the one who had to grow alone
I’m sorry fatherhood is not something you can postpone
You were never a father and if I’m ever a father to be
I swear to God that that is exactly what I will be
See, I know your father wasn’t much of a father either
But mother told me that you were crying when he was dying of cancer
Cause you never got the chance to beat him up
Now that’s just a close-up
Into my father’s mind
Father of mine
How would you define father?
Or would you not bother and feel it was fine?
For someone
