First Track Ever... Beat by 13th Disciple
Lyrics
Block order corridor holding, a wooden paved aisle,
Crept with the tux, testament vows read in swift style,
This energy’s wild, pea soup green bangs out,
Hold the game out, now whenever I cry it rains out,
Seems I been bordered and framed out, doubts been gone,
Although I know I did wrong before I changed right after,
Can’t flip that script in love’s chapter, still I’m waiting,
Seeing your image in Da Vinci and Picasso paintings,
Everywhere I look, its you, every single hook sings you,
You thieved my heart and moved like how crooks do,
And now I miss you, loving your aura and curves,
Poetry in motion when you walk, the asphalt you burn,
Seems for you I yearn, in a personal confinement,
Trapped and haunted by my ultimate desire,
This black button-down is purposeful attire,
So I propose to you,
Would die the next day just to spend the night holding you,
And suppose I do, my ghost would still be missing you,
Right by your side, you’d feel me just not in the physical,
Just to witness you in bliss would send me in my own,
So my state of mind has been to love you more than before,
God to grant me one kiss with you, cherish in passion,
Love you more than you know, what we have is everlasting.
We been moving that sundial from some while,
Still broke with expenses, no house, car, or child,
Same broken apartment, three jobs we been working,
Every night seems that arguments is always occurring,
And I been storming out, for no purpose with drunken rages,
Seems love’s an enigma, the Bacardi Limon keeping me sane,
Along with Zane novels, till you picked up the digits and math,
I was just fucking them girls for laughs, Come on you know I love you,
And yeah I put you through hell and back when again and again,
But they came on to me; you need to be checking your friends,
Seems I’m special to then, but you mean more to me,
Hold, pause before you grab that; don’t start war with me,
Matter fact fuck that, bitch, I’m tired of your shit, be easy,
All the work I do to supply you, you still need me,
Fuck this shit, I’m going out. Shit isn’t working,
Close the door; shake the hinges and rattles, end of conversing,
Hop in the closest cab approaching fast to leave the street,
With you staring out the window, eyes glaring at me,
By then I could care less you happy,
But then I glance at my ring and realize its you I married,
Oh well fuck it, shit’s done and had to let her know,
I’ll fix it like usual once I get back home…
Not to ever leave me, you promised,
That’s the single thought that rang as I reached the asylum,
Heart broken, still I was crying, caught up eyeing,
The latch on the back door, and thoughts of me to pass away dying,
Why you placed that gun to your temple? Engraved my name on the steel,
To show that I’m the last thing that passed through mental?
Saw the crimson blood, ruby effect, it jeweled down your neck,
Too hard was it to glance at the Beretta lay next to your head,
Couldn’t shed enough tears, so I placed you right on our bed,
Truly I, didn’t think you committed suicide,
Not better you than I, so I placed my prints on the handle,
Grabbed the cordless and threatened to pull the trigger,
Soon enough heard sirens and dispatchers, blue and red lights,
Couldn’t think Romeo’s Juliet died, but then realized,
It was the other side my angel wanted to see me, to need me,
Knew you’d be pleased see, they ain’t know I slipped that vial of poison,
Soon in eternity it would be you I’d be joining,
On my deaths’ eve, cradle me in your everlasting loving,
Fuck all the others, the answer was the death, the question was,
How long would it take for you to see my love I held for you,
In life I know I fucked up, in death I hope I do well for you…