hip hop
melodic
dark
deep
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Lyrics
Looked up to you like I was supposed to/
Even though we were never too close, you
We’re in a different state, situation was military on ships and bases
And I never once held the past against you / no hatred towards you couldn’t even pretend too
Couldn’t love you full because my heart was caution / hard to give a fuck when you forgot to call us
Holidays, birthdays, you were always gone / but you were always ready when the party’s on
I forgave you, tried to maintain a bond / but I don’t really don’t even know you with the games you on
You go on and on over all the shit you’ve done/ and how you fucked up how you loved my mom
But the truth is so cold and lost In Darkness you/ regardless try to save face you heartless
Chorus
Look... I don’t need the negativity
That you bring to my life, all the games you play see you ain’t the man you pretend to be
But I don’t need you bringing me down we’re not the same I’ll never be like you how could I when you were never around
Bridge
And I don’t really see see the point right now, cause I don’t need your help /
And now you’re coming to the end of your life - trying to save yourself
Verse 2
Look mom I know you tried hard, raising 4 bad kids on your own/ you made mistakes but I ain’t never place the blame on you forreal who’s first to cast a stone
I’m not perfect, and you ain’t either / but your words they hurt and burn my heart like either
But at least you stuck around and didn’t leave us / when shit got hard you were there believing
So even, though words can be deceiving when most of our youth you were there sleeping
All the Physical harm all the beatings we received when/ we were young and you didn’t even /
care about the pain you gave us mental anguish and all the bruises you leaving/
But I have to live with all the shit you’ve done/
Im still your son you cost us with your addiction
Chorus
Look... I only see the negativity
That you brought to my life, and the scars
from all the shit you said and things that you did to me
All the times that you brought me down made me feel like suicide and wonder why I was ever around
Bridge
And I dont see the point right now, your addiction aint help/
And when it came to the end of your life, I had to save myself/