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I Hate You - Don't Leave Me
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From the album 'Wastoid'(2013) This song is Lovingly Dedicated to my absolutely awesome Wife, Willow!!!!
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Decaying Orbit is an unorthodox, highly diverse & genre-splitting band from Texas led by their infamous front man Mike Ash.
Decaying Orbit is an experimental, unorthodox, highly diverse & genre-splitting band from Texas led by their infamous front man Mike Ash. "No, this music's not about that, it's not about sound quality, it's about passion." - Mike Ash. Decaying Orbit is produced by their label, Decaying Enterprises Productions and has released many studio albums since they formed in 2008, after the violent break up of the Psychedelic Rock band, Strangefire, of which Mike was the former front man. Decaying Orbit believes in unadulterated musical & creative freedom, Mike describes their music as a "cathartic purge" or "nervous break downs caught on tape.". The band believes that creating music is a sacred, spiritual and magical art form brought to them by the Muses, wraiths and demons hidden just beyond the veil between the worlds of the physical and spiritual realms. Decaying Orbit has traveled beyond the veil and into the realms of the spirits, only to reemerge, like a caterpillar from it's cocoon emerging as a beautiful butterfly, so does Decaying Orbit get reborn through the fire of their cacophonous tunage. The band believes in complete freedom of lifestyle, I.E. sexuality, religion, spirituality, drugs, manner of dress etc. They believe that music is an interstellar language that needs no translation to be understood by absolutely anyone. It's the passion behind the emotions found in the music that matters to Decaying Orbit, they believe that integrity is more important than fortune or fame. This is our Decaying Orbit & we do hope that you will N'Joy tha' show!!!!
Song Info
Genre
Electronic Hardcore
Charts
Peak #68
Peak in subgenre #3
Author
Mike Ash/Decaying Orbit/
Rights
(C)Decaying Enterprises 2013
Uploaded
April 19, 2013
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MP3 4.9 MB 160 kbps 4:18
Story behind the song
I recorded the synth/keys first when I played this tune. I just fell completely in LOVE with that hooky riff I'm playing on the keys. when I began writing/recording this tune, I had my doubts as to how it was going to work out in the end, but I kept on anyway & I'm soooo very glad that I did. the title of this jam is actually stolen directly from a book by the same title that is about Borderline Personality Disorder, which I suffer from. well, the title seemed totally appropriate, considering the lyrics to the song were basically about the problems that I have had behind my diagnosis. However, the ACTUAL message of the song is "Oh My God!!! You Have My Eternal Gratitude, Love & Devotion For Your Amazing & Undying Devotion To Me & My Mental Health!!!! and the big fucking THANK YOU goes directly out to WILLOW, my awesome Wife, without whom I wouldn't have made it even a step in this cold, harsh & uncaring world. I LOVE YOU FOREVER & ALWAYS MY BEAUTIFUL WILLOW!!!! YOU HAVE MY SINCEREST AND DEEPEST GRATITUDE FOR SAVING ME FROM MYSELF TIME AND TIME AGAIN!!!!
Lyrics
I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me Rocking back and forth with my head in my hands Never thought I’d find myself feeling this again All I ever wanted was an end to the pain But it just keeps on coming, it’s driving me insane I can’t stop the yelling or the voices in my head Telling me I’m worthless, that I’d be better dead I cry and scream in agony, but nobody is hearing me You are like an angel sitting by my side Telling me to be strong, that it will be alright Oh how I Love you so for keeping me alive What I wouldn’t do for you, my Love, my whole life You watched me as I fell apart but never gave up hope You we’re always there for me, helping me to cope Through the blood and tears and rage You stayed you stayed you stayed I tried so hard to push you away I Love you more than I could ever say Thank you so f*** ing much for everything A debt that I cannot repay; It hurt so bad that I thought that I would die I wished for death like a million times I bashed my hands into my face I cried and cried and cried You stuck by and pulled the knives out of my back My tears you dried I Love you so my beautiful My Willow, my very soul You pulled me from the darkest place And pulled me into the light You rubbed my hair and caressed my face And made sure I was alright.
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LeeBoos
May 13, 2013
Interesting layering of the keys. Every time I visit is a learning experience. Interesting genre Thanks Lee
J3r3my
May 12, 2013
ohhhh! I thought counting pennies was some game on facebook or something ... oh sh1t man sorry I ddint git to you earlier. yeah man..let out.. CREATE! and medicate! I do and am right now! rollll on
Drumnjon
Apr 25, 2013
Mike, SO HEARTFELT....wow! Drumnjon
Michael Bennett
Apr 22, 2013
Great lyrics and the keys sound divine!