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January 2022
Jan 27, 2022
A new year. New things in the works as well. Some beginnings and the odd green shoot breaking through the crack in the pavement.
I am a bit knackered generally speaking at present. I have made some new music connections and I do hope they will grow survive the frost.
Its been a long time since I tried anything really new. Lots of thoughts racing around my head that are not too much to do with anything but are quite distracting and even disturbing at times. I do wonder how people manage to filter out the distractions as I find with time passing I am more and more easily drawn off course than I ever was before. Also my ability to stay focused and enthusiastic for any length of time seems long gone. I am fine when I am working with others in the main, but alone its now a real battle. Is it simply a a lack of novelty or something more than that? The first song I recorded this year is different as the lyrics were provided by a friend. Its been a long time since i did that sort of collaboration. It seems to have worked out OK though as a few people have played it already and shared it. Its a relatively simple tune and was an experiment which seems to have succeeded. So perhaps a few more collaborative efforts could be in the pipe line.
glass cage - Circus Street
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Just me drinking tea
Aug 30, 2020
glass cage - Golden Ticket
Hi, hope you are all keeping well, wherever you may be today.
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August in lock-down land UK
Aug 22, 2020
Strange days. Strange thoughts and much else. Obsessions and echos from the still small voices in my head. Nothing new but perhaps the voices are a little more persistant than they used to be. Keeping out ot of trouble is difficult at times when your mind wants to wander elsewhere and your body wants to follow when perhaps it shouldnt?
Lost in an unreal world of reflection and illusions that the light creates when it fractures into component colours. Sometimes light does not reveal the truth of things, but quite the reverse. The hue is a distraction that hides the shapes of things, though there is no shade.
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Lockdown Days in England June 2020
Jun 18, 2020
glass cage - Fallen Stranger
Well, it been a bit of a week. My anxiety levels are creeping up and there does not seem to be much I can do about them, other than just try and chill out as much as possible. Yep, its hard work for sure. I guess there are a lot of other people who are feeling much the same right now of course. I have been trying to carry on doing stuff. I have tried doing a little drawing and sketching to get my mind into a different place and it helps a little but the bizarre intrusive thoughts are quite overwhelming at times, as they often are even at the best of times. I have had a good crack at all the usual techniques for this over the years so I do have ways of trying to keep the demons tied down sufficiently. But I feel trapped. Actually I am not really as I have open spaces to visit and space to do stuff but I really do miss social contact with people other than my partner. We are people with very different interests and under normal conditions that actually works quite well for us. But right now its not. I do phone calls and video chats and stuff and that helps but it is often not really enough I find.
There is a big difference between being face to face with someone and seeing and hearing them on a screen.
Its looking likely that we will not be seeing anything remotely normal for 18 months or so. Perhaps by August, the pubs will be open again. At least some of them. Its not likely to be the sort of places that I have played music at though as these do not allow for social distancing sadly.
Also its difficult to tell if any weird symptoms are the bug or just anxiety and other stuff. I have had headaches which might be stress or hay fever or maybe just not sleeping well. My back has been playing up a lot and making it very difficult to use the PC so one way and another its not going too well. I find myself getting very irritable too.
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