renee hartman
Merry Christmas Bogus Khan 2009
Dec 23, 2009
My Beloved Fur Angel,
I can't believe that Christmas has
slipped up on me so fast this year.
It seems like only yesterday that
it was the start of December and
suddenly it is almost Christmas
Eve.
Sweetheart, I will always miss
you until the time comes for
me to leave this earth and be
reunited with you forever at the
Rainbow Bridge. I have placed
your picture with the 12 red
mini bows surrounding it on the
wall where I can see it every day
when I wake up. Those 12 years
you were here on this earth were
12 of the best years of my life.
When my relationship was falling
to peices, and even when things
were completely off track with
my kids, you were always there
with me, and for me, loving me
no matter what. So when it was
your time to leave this earth, I
could do no less than to be there
with you, and for you, all the way
to the very end, then to give your
empty shell of a body a most
honorable and dignified burial.
And to remember you always.
I am so happy that the poem I
wrote in your honor 2 days after
your passing those 6 years ago,
was placed into the hands of a
most talented and sensitive musician
who turned your poem into a
song that has imortalized you
forever. I play it often, but then
you know that. I miss you and
always will, but your song has
brought closure at last for me.
Please take care of Cloud Warrior,
a most worthy kitty to have been
sent to us to fill the huge pawprints
that you left all over our hearts. And
poor little Patches, my little wayfarer
that I could not save, but only give
food, water, shelter, and guidance
to when it was his turn to leave this
mean old world. I wish I could have
done more for him , but he was just
too far gone from being abandoned
and unfed for so long. Say hello to
Bugsy, and give him our special
love. And please keep watch over
your brothers Willow and Booger,
as well as your mom Layla. Let her
know that I will forever love her
for bringing you all to me and my
now ex when you were such tiny
kittens. And I hope you are still
chasing that nasty old red squirrel
there at the Bridge. Serves him
right for embarrassing you like
that.
So tomorrow night(Christmas Eve)
I am going to light a white candle
for you, as well as one for Cloud
Warrior, have a toast of hot cocoa
in your memories, and listen to
yours and Cloud's songs as a special
way of remembering you both..
Until we meet again at the
Rainbow Bridge.......
I Love You I Love You I Love You
Your loving, greiving Mom
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Merry Christmas Cloud Warrior 2009
Dec 23, 2009
My Adorable Cloud Warrior,
Tomorrow night will be Christms
Eve. I can't believe that this year
has flown by so fast, let alone the
month of December. Where did
the time and days go?
Sweetheart I still miss you very
much, as does the rest of the
family, espically your human
dad. He is able to talk about you
every now and then, but I can tell
it still hurts him very much. And
we both still hate that street that
he has to pass whenever he gets
in the truck to go anywhere in
town. I will always wish that I
could have been there with you
during your final hours, but I
guess that was just not in the
cards. Perhaps it is just as well
in a way, because as much as I love
you, I probably would have fallen
apart, considering the way you
were taken from us. I wish at least
that the person who hit you with
his/her car would have at least
made the effort to contact us and
let us know, instead of just driving
off. How heartless of that person!
Please look after my Khan and
keep him company until my time
comes for me to be re united with
him forever. The kitties that you
helped Seven raise are coming into
their own, and darling, they are
just splendid. Claw is somewhat
of a bully but he is getting some
badly needed lessons as to what
happens to bullies. How I wish that
you could have taught him that
lesson before you left this earth,
but at this point Seven and Babygirl
are teaching him rather well, like the
other day when they ganged up on
him and took turns stickering him
in the butt until he ran off into the
front room and hid under the table
pouting for hours. Sorry I can't help
but laugh at that picture. There was
a scary period of time when I thought
we might lose Fire, due to his severe
allergic reaction to the flea bites and
the infection setting in. But your
human dad finally remembered
Goldenseal and what a miracle cure
it is for kitties, and started using it.
Fire has healed up, and is as frisky
and mischevious as ever. He loves
my youngest son more than ever.
Matter of fact those two are just
about inseperable now. I can't tell
you how happy I am to see Fire
healed up. I don't know what it is
about him, but I just love him to
bits. He is so sweet tempered, and
laid back. Not to mention that he
is so highly intelligent, loyal, and
loving. No wonder you took to
him like you did. But the other
kitties are also very smart and
loving. It's just something special
about Fire that I love.
Thank you for bringing joy and
love back into our lives after
we had lost Khan and were still
lost and greiving. And for some
of the most wonderful times and
memories that we could ever have.
You brought a brand new meaning
to the words humor and intelligence.
And that, my precious fur angel, is
no insult to my beloved Khan who
was mighty intelligent and funny
in his own way.
So tomorrow night(Christmas Eve)
I am going to light a white candle
in your honor, drink a cup of hot
cocoa to you, and play your song
that has imortalized you forever.
Which would never have been
written if it had not been for the
gentle, but firm encouragement of
a talented, sentsitive, and caring
musician who put my lyrics to
music and put me on the path
of songwriting.
Until we all see you again
at the Rainbow Bridge....
We Love You We Love You We Love You
Your loving human and cat family
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One Year ago Today
Oct 22, 2009
My Darling Cloud Warrior,
Today marks one year ago that our lives
and hearts were torn apart . We did not
know until the next day that you had
left this earthly plane of existance, but
the other kitties knew.
Sweetheart, it still hurts me to the core
that I was not with you when you left
us. I know that's unfair to myself, because
I could not have known. But it's just so
damned unfair that you died alone, when
Bogus did not. I would give my heart
to have been there with you in your
final moments. But I guess that's the
way it was supposed to be. Still it does
not seem right or fair to me.
Your human daddy misses you so much
and hurts so badly still. He loves you
so deeply and completely. Seven still
misses you dreadfully. Frankly so do
all the kitties. And my youngest son that
you bonded with first. And I miss you
very much. My two consolations are
knowing that you are at Rainbow Bridge
waiting for us, restored to full health,
and that you have your own special
song that has immortalized you forever,.
I play it often. Like today. And I can't
help but cry. I'm sorry but it just hurts
so much. I miss you so very much.
You were such a blessing to us at a
time when we were still hurting so much
from losing Bogus Khan. Who, the way,
is also immortalized in his own song.
You brought healing and love back into
our lives, brought Seven back from
insanity, and helped raise her lovely
kittens. I will never, ever forget the
look on your furry face when you realized
that she was giving birth to her kittens
on your human daddy's bed in the house.
I'm sorry darling, but that was just the
most comical expression on your face.
You were so loving, comical, loyal,
and everything good to and for us.
You stole all our hearts in seconds,
from the time my son spotted you coming
home from school on Febuary 4th, until
the time you walked into our house and
proceeded to steal your human dad's
heart.
You were the most brave and trusting
kitty in the world to have come home
to us the terrible night that someone
tried to kill you. What faith you had in
us that we could help you. And my
precious fur angel your trust and faith
was fully justified. How could we do
any less, after all that you had done to
enrich our lives? You were so so
brave that night and all the days that
followed. I'm so sorry that your jaw
never was the same and that it hurt you
all the days that followed, until the
night you were taken from us so
abruptly. You didn't deserve that.
You did the most splendid job in the
world of training Seven's kitties and
watching them grow into amazingly
swift, smart, loving, hunter cats.
I know you are waiting for us at the
Rainbow Bridge, but my darling
fur angel we miss you so much from
this earthly plane of existance and
can't wait until the time when we
will be with you and Bogus again
for eternity............
We love you We love you We love you
Your loving, griving family
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It's Been Six Years
Oct 5, 2009
My Darling Bogus,
Today marks 6 years of your leaving
this world to go on to the Rainbow
Bridge. If it were 60 years it would
still hurt and I would still cry. I still
miss you that much. If I did not
believe with all my heart that the
Rainbow Bridge exists, if I had not
been given that special sign 1 month
after your passing, I honestly don't
think I could stand you being gone
even now. When you left, you took
half of my heart with you. Things
have never been the same or right
for me after you left. I really had no
idea how much you guarded me when
you were here, until after you were
gone.
Please keep looking after Cloud Warrior
and Patches. We all still miss Cloud
very much.What does comfort me
more than anything is to listen to your
song and Cloud's song that my song
writer friend and collaborator was kind
and generous enough to do for me at
my request. It does bring some measure
of comfort to listen to the songs that
have immortalized you and Cloud
forever. And to know that your's and
Cloud's songs have been heard all
across the world. I would like to think
that every time I play yours or Cloud's
song, that you and Cloud hear them too.
I love all the kitties that Seven brought
into the world, but Babygirl(spoiled as
she is) is still my heart. She's a sweetheart
but oooooohhh she can be a little devil
when she wants to be. Reminds me of you
when you were younger. Good grief
you could be so naughty!! But I loved
you anyway just like I love Babygirl that
much.
I can't wait to see your
beautiful face and hear you precious
high pitched baby cry again. And to
sweep you into my arms to hold you
close to me, never to be separated from
you again. And to cross the Rainbow
Bridge with you into eternity.........
I love you I love you I love you
Mom
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