my demo "rondevous" computer crashed and dont know who did production! get at me please- gotta give u props!

How I feel today Sometimes life confuses me, which way to go, which direction to take, who is supposed to be in my life that isn’t? When do I understand what all this is for? I have experienced so much, and learned even more. There is knowledge and a love inside of me that I have gained that is priceless, and it’s anticipating its recipient. Some blessed soul to reap the rewards of my growth my love my strength I want to share give, be one with, lavish love someone purely. Learn and experience new aspects of the attributes that God created in us to emulate him and give it to him as an equal a help-mate a lover a friend a teacher a student. To be that amazing woman behind the man that brings great strength to his heart that invokes courage hope and united with all that he touches, to be a peace for him in the mist of their storm To recognized and be appreciated for who I am and what I bring to his heart his life Even this train of thought, even this has it cost me something, I feel as though my life have been a series of classes and test. Preparing me for some particular event, or some amazing person or persons that I am to unite with to produce something the world has never tasted, but must face Passing these courses, have demanded that I learn how to bend Bending calls for a rearrangement of all of my concepts To apply these assets to my established principals then allow the situation to unfold It’s all In Gods master plan, and where I fit in is still a mystery to me Who I fit in with is even a greater unknown I hear the voice telling me to Walk by faith… not by sight…. observe the signs Where does your road continue to lead you? Right back in the father’s heart Only the thing s you do for Christ will last Be patient, vigilant, watch as well as and pray, be wise as serpent but meek as a lamb Learn to love yourself value what God has invested in you Recognize the gifts and govern yourself accordingly His ways are not our way; His thoughts are not our thoughts To value oneself, one must accept their fate as part of their journey To except whatever fate life distributes receiving the bad with the same humility that you receive the good and to embrace it… is learning how to bend Yes this journey has cost me something My tears my sweet my blood my pain , many inner deaths, and the life that come with every resurrections that follows, transitions twisting turning combining, shifting, facing conquering overcoming many fears has left me winded bent humble and broken, A wounded soldier is an experienced soldier They attune themselves to the victory of the war by studying the battles Strategically analyzing themselves, tuning themselves to the key of victory But it all happened to me so that I could be here on this road in this place at this time today. So why here, why now, when I know tomorrow the answers of yesterday I will still have the uncertainty of today and yet another journey full of tomorrows. So Peace within is all I can hope to possesses And what I posses is the sum total of the wisdom and passion of all this has shared with me and I have taken good notes