Mystikjipsy
An Orgasm For My Soul
Jun 1, 2008
This is something I wrote on another site about how I was feeling recently and thought I'd share it on here with you. I'm doing much better now. :) haha! Also, I will be using this blog to write about pretty much any and everything that comes to my mind that I want to share. I hope you enjoy reading!
"I haven't been able to figure out what has been bothering me these days. I have been having this feeling of irritation and pistation that I couldn't seem to put my finger on. The kind that makes you feel like a cloud is over your head and your eyes feel like little tiny peep holes and they burn and you feel like you have a frown with clenched teeth. ( I know dramatic and weird but it's the only way I could explain) Yeah..I've got little annoyances like everybody else, but this is/has been something more profoundly annoying. Lately I've been falling into the old rut of living like I have to "wait" to do certain things in my life. Like I'm living my life according to what I'm "allowed" to do or something. To go even further...it's like I'm waiting for life to happen. That is pretty pathetic and scary. But...at least I am realizing now what I am feeling and now I can make steps to drive down a different road in a cool new car.
I have had the pleasure (in the last 3 months) of experiencing myself making a firm decision on what it is I wanted. When I say that I mean, when I made a concrete decision about a situation, that's when things started lining up and started to happen for me the way I'd like them to. Also, there was a peace within me and I felt at one with myself and everything.
So with that said, maybe what I am missing right now is firm decision making and knowing what I want out of the few situations that are going on in my life right now. As a matter of fact I know that is what I am missing and why I feel such irritation and annoyance. But let me type a little bit more to get a bit more clarity.
Life lived flying in the wind is not the way to go...at least for me. Making sound decisions, choosing to go with those decisions, and knowing they are what you want, are some of the most exquisite, joyous ways of being in my world. It's like an orgasm for your soul...it feels REALLY good...and I'm definitely not one to hate on orgasms. lol
Making a decision to me is like completing the circle. It puts the ball in my court and dissolves that feeling of anxiousness and uncalm. It is my truth about me. It also tells others my truth and takes away any feelings of guilt I may place on myself. By that I mean, when you aren't truthful about what you want and making decisions about who you are and what you want..guilt can and will creep in. It can get in the way of relationships and life in general. Because not making a decision and letting life fly in the wind is giving away power. When that happens, you feel guilty because of not doing what you should be doing for yourself...while holding "silent grudges" against others for playing along with it.
So..with all that said, I feel worlds better already and know what I want to do and have already made inner strides while typing this. Thanx for listening or reading this..and maybe it will help someone else out. Who knows? :) "
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My Birthday
May 20, 2008
Well..today is the day! It's my birthday yaay! Really that is all I want to say..I'm just happy for some reason. Today is within the full moon and it's an exact replica of the day I was born with the exception of the year and the full moon. I was born on the 3rd Tuesday of May in 1975..and today is the 3rd Tuesday of May. I find that very cool. I am going to do something "special" today at the time I was born..that will definetely pack a magical punch in the energy aspect of my birthday huh? haha!
Anyway..I hope all are having a great day today. :)
Talk to you soon.
¢¾ Mystikjipsy aka Cher J
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